One In A Million

Torn apart

Avi POV
I thought that things were going good. I can't believe this. We get to the car and I address the situation
"Hey sweetie." I say to her
"Yes?"
"Did you have a good time?" Don't worry I'm getting there.
"Oh yes. Most defiantly." She answered me.
"Now. I must ask you about that scar on your wrist."
"Well, I don't know what to tell you."
She says looking down at her wrist.
"I wanna know what happened." I'm in almost full tears right now,but I'm trying to hold them back.
"I don't know what happened. I just found the knives,and I did it,and I felt relieved."
I can't believe I'm hearing this.
She's caressing my face
"Sweetie what's wrong?"
"What's wrong? Kirstie! It's my job to make you happy,and you clearly aren't happy somethings bugging you to do this,and if I can't make you happy than in failing." I'm wailing by now.
"Oh no,no honey,it's not you I promise. I don't know what it is,I can't explain it. But you are not the problem,you make me so,so,so happy I couldn't have asked for a better boyfriend ever."
"You almost got married last year...."
"I know. he doesn't beat this."
I kissed her head
"I promise I'll stop,ill try,and if I don't you can put me in therapy. Sound good?" She says.
"Ummm. Uh,yea,I guess."
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Kirstie POV
This isn't how I wanted him to find out. I wasn't expecting this. I told him that if I can't get better by me trying to get better that he can put me in therapy. I mean,me and Avi are getting pretty serious,I want a future with him, I don't wanna mess this up. Is it gonna be hard? Yes. But,is it what's best for this relationship? Yes. So, I'm gonna do it.

    When we get to the house it's about 10:30. So,we stayed up a bit and watched some tv. Lord Of The Rings was on so we just stuck with that. We didn't really talk much,I think he's still kind of upset about what happened,I would be too. I can't blame him,this is a lot to take in,but I'm going to make this better,I'm gonna get better.
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Avi POV
I'm just in shock. I feel like I'm failing to make my princess happy. I don't feel like talking,because talking turns into crying and I don't feel like doing all that when its all going to go down hill.

The movie is over by now, and so I look over and Kirstie is asleep on my chest. So, I pick her up bridal style and carry her to her bedroom. I start to get choked up, I can't believe she wanted to hurt herself. That she wasn't happy in some way. She told me that it wasn't me,I have to believe it. But,if it wasn't me,who or what was it?
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Kirstie POV
I pretended to fall asleep on Avi so he would pick me up and take me to my room. I know it's stupid,but I was desperate. He wasn't saying anything and I wanted him to act normal around me. He picked me up bridal style and he started tearing up and he set me on the bed. He thought I was asleep so he thought I couldn't hear anything,so he started saying something
"I'm gonna fix this baby,I promise."
He's caressing my hair. He feels so bad, I tried to tell him it's not him, it's me.