Transgender ( Dan X reader )

He Can't Know!

"(Y/n)! (Y/n)!"
"Please wake up!"
"Come on, wake up!"
You heard people trying to talk to you. You woke up and saw Dan and Zoe leaning over you.
"She's awake!" Zoe exclaimed.
"Are you okay?" Dan said.
"Yeah I'm fine, I just had a panic attack back there, I'm sorry." You apologize for something that wasn't your fault, that was your biggest flaw.
"It's not your fault (y/n), I was rushing the relationship, if anyone is sorry, it's me." Dan said calmly.
"Dan told me everything (y/n)." Zoe said. Zoe calmed you down and gave you your malteasers. You laid on the couch and watched some Supernatural. Zoe sat at your feet and looked at Twitter.
*beep*
Twitter
Zoella posted a new tweet:
Best friend looks happy with the malteasers I bought her @/(y/t/n)

You laughed and looked at the comments. People were obsessing over shipping you two. Typical. Can't people just be friends? Well you like Zoe but you have Dan, even though you get scared of the dreams you have. You put your feet on Zoe and she glared at you. She took a malteaser from the bag. You took a photo and tweeted it
@/(y/t/n)
Exposed @/Zoella 😂

<insert photo>

"Really (y/n)?" She said giggling
"Yes really." You said laughing. You noticed the bandages on your wrist and slid your sweatshirt over them. Zoe didn't see it, gladly. She would be so mad if she found out you cut yourself. Last time she took you to a therapist and paid for it herself. She really did care about you, a lot. Maybe more that you thought...

~*~

You stood up to go change. Zoe followed you making sure you didn't collapse on the ground. She waited outside as you collected your things for a shower and walked to the bathroom. You looked at the exact place you passed out and cringed. You turned the shower on hot and let steam form. You took of the bloody bandages and stuffed them to the very bottom of the trash. You stepped in and washed up. You went ahead and shaved your legs. You got out and heard Zoe outside the door talking on the phone.
"Yeah, of coarse I love her, but she's with Dan!"
"I shouldn't have set them up, I'm an idiot!"
"Yeah, after her and Dan break up I'm going for it!"
Well then. I'm going to act like I didn't hear that. Okay? Okay.
You got out of the shower and put your boy shorts on, a sports bra, a large jumper and crop leggings. Your cuts stopped bleeding so you put make up over it and they looked like they weren't even there. You walked out to Zoe scrolling Instagram as the artificial light hit her face perfectly. Ahh shut up (y/n), stop fangirling over your best friend! You tapped her on the shoulder and she looked at you. She stared at you right in the eyes. Right into my soul.
"Let's go to the living room, Dan wants to ask you something." She said patting the side of your head. You stumbled down the hallway. Your legs went numb after hot showers, one of your weaknesses. Dan was sitting in the breakfast bar, looking at Twitter.
"I heard you wanted to ask me something." You said sneaking up behind him and hugging him. "Hey beautiful!" He said. "I wanted to ask you if you want to um-uh well sleep with me? It's cold in that room."
You froze, he CAN'T FIND OUT. But you didn't want to seem awkward.
"Uh yeah, sure." You said looking everywhere but at Dan.
Tonight going to be a long night...