It's not Heaven without you. (Phan)

Chapter 2: Where is he?

Ouch... My mouth tastes like blood. I could never be a vampire... Phil, calm down, you can't think about things like that in a situation like this.

What can I do to stop it? How can I make myself survi--- Oh crap. Oh God. Dan. He was with me in the bus, oh my God.

I... I can't do this. I can't think of a solution. My brain isn't working. Is it the sight of my boyfriend 10 feet away from his arm, or the rod stuck trough my head? Maybe it's both. I can't save him. I promised him he'd never get hurt next to me. I failed...

I-I... Oh... Head... Not working...

The last thing I heard was him screaming my name. At least I ended with him.

I saw a flash of bright light. My body started floating up. I felt light as a breeze, but my heart was still down there with him. I didn't want to leave him.

Suddenly I was on a nice, comfortable couch. A very kind-looking old man was sitting next to me, but somebody was missing.

"Hello, Phil. I always hate doing this part, but you are dead.", the old man said in the most calming voice I've ever heard.

"Wha-what? Where am I? Is this... Heaven?"

"Yes. Take a closer look at it if you want to. It's your personal one. Everything I could bring here, I did."

I looked over the room. It was our apartment. Every material possession I ever wanted was there. So were pictures of me and Dan, all of our best moments. But he wasn't there. It's not the home I'm used to without him.

"Where is Dan?" I asked firmly.

"I'm sorry, but even as God, my power is not endless. I can't bring people who aren't worthy of Heaven here. He never believed in me." he tried to shorten the explanation as much as he could. I didn't like God very much. He doesn't seem as smart and kind as God should.

"Not worthy? Excuse me? But my Bear is more worthy of being here than you are." I shout. I'm arguing with God himself because of Daniel Howell. Needless to say, he means quite a bit to me.

"Phil! You are behaving unlike your Earth self. You shouldn't disrespect me." God was getting angry. I still, frankly, didn't care. He matters more.

"Well, my Earth self was never torn apart from Dan." I continued. He can send me to hell, if that means I get to see the one person I truly care about again.

"Fair enough. If you want to see Daniel so much, then you could go there with him. But the way there is almost as horrid as when you get there. You must be ready to suffer with him, rather than live in pleasure without him." he explained.

"There is no life in pleasure without him." I wasn't going to give up on him. I will keep my promise, at least in death.

"Are you sure you want to? You could have an amazing forever in this place." God wasn't giving up.

"I don't care about forever. It can't be amazing without him. If you are God, you should figure it out."

"Fair enough. I must warn you, though, you will see many things on your way to hell. It's what you'd expect: the transition of having everything you've ever wanted in life to having everything you ever loved destroyed. That path has many illusions. But, remember, when you see 3 flashes of green light, that means the illusions stop there. You can go back at any time, though, if you end up choosing Heaven over Daniel at one point." God explained. I now liked him a bit more.He isn't going to stop me.

"I'm going to see Dan again. I don't care what I have to go trough." I have never been so sure of something in my entire life.