Ever since Kanato started to avoid me, I was at a loss. I know I said I was going to fix our distance, but nothing came to mind that didn't involve making him hate me one way or another. Sweets wouldn't work because he had ran after taking them last time. The longer I kept thinking about it, the more my heart hurt.
It has been two months since I last talked to my sweet blood sucking prince, and even seeing him is starting to get hard. The girls in my class are laughing at me and telling me I must have scared him away by just being me. I wanted to tell them off; tell them that there was nothing wrong. But what's the point of lying when everyone knows the truth? I just hung my head as I walked to my classes, no longer feeling any kind of motivation.
Despite my suffering, the days moved on. Life continued as if it had some damn schedule to meet. It didn't stop to give me some time to recover what pride and stability that I had. That made me realize that my life had no meaning. It was just a small thing in a world of a bigger purpose. Why was I even here, if my beloved didn't even want me?
Soon, my parents noticed the change in my behavior. They sent me to therapy, thinking it might help. I met with a Dr. Sukimaki twice a week and sat in her office talking about shit that didn't matter. She didn't push me to say anything, and I was happy about that. I soon thought that she was my friend. I was wrong.
When I finally came forward with how I felt, she said he wasn't worth it! That he was just a boy! That it wasn't something I had to be so hung up over! I stormed out of there faster than I had ever gone. Of course, I came back later and ended her by shooting her with one of the school's bows from the archery club. She didn't know what hit her.
After that fulfilling side activity, though, the anxious and degrading feeling that I had lost because of the bitch. Guess she was useful until she dissed Kanato. I didn't need to be talking to someone like that. I didn't need the negative encouragement.
It didn't help that another break from school came along. Stupid spring break. It was ten days of self-loathing and hatred. Kanato might never speak to me again. He hates me. I did everything for him, and now he's gone! I even killed for him! Why couldn't he be happy about that? I hated not having something to do for him. I would've been making him something during break, but now I don't know what would make him happy...wait. I do know!
On the last day of break, I got dressed up in my cute purple knee length dress with a pair of black leggings. I did my makeup and then headed out after putting on a pair of black and purple heels. I was going to go see him, whether he liked it or not. We would have a nice talk and work things out, and I wasn't leaving until it was worked out.
Thankfully, my stalker phase hadn't ended before I worked up the nerve to talk to Kanato, so I knew where he lived. I headed there by cab and headed in through the gate. It was bigger than I remembered it...then again, last time I saw it was from the branch of a tree through binoculars...heh.
I walked toward the door and knocked, waiting patiently until the door started to open. I heard some muttering and my heart began to flutter. Kanato was the one opening the door!
"Yes? What do you want?" He asked, not even looking to see who was at the door. I couldn't see him inside either, so that was a let down, but I'll manage. I just need him to either come out or let me in. I refuse to talk through the door.
"I want to talk Kanato." I said, my voice holding steady despite my rising nerves. "You've been avoiding me and I want to know why. Is it something that I did?" I asked, trying not to sound too desperate even though I really was.
"(Y/N)..." I heard him mutter before sticking his head from behind the door. I almost swooned when I saw him. It's been so long! "I don't think it's a smart idea to talk here. Please leave." He said, and he seemed like he was pulling even further away.
"Then lets go on a walk! And you can bring Teddy, if that'll make you feel more comfortable. I really only want to talk." I pushed, begging him with my eyes now.
He let out a sigh as he came out and closed the door behind him. He held Teddy close as we started walking back to the gate. We walked as far as to a park before I finally broke the silence. "Why have you been avoiding me?"
"...We haven't been avoiding you." He said after a moment of hesitation. "Teddy just...feels like we shouldn't be near you." He looked at the ground, not once looking at me.
"That's avoiding Kanato!" I almost screamed. I took a deep breath and calmed myself down. "If you don't give someone a warning or a notice before you start disappearing from their sight is avoiding someone...and it hurts." I whispered, holding my arms and looking down at my feet. "I don't know what I did wrong, but please tell me if it's fixable or not. Not knowing is killing me."
I could see his head snap up to look at me from the corner of my eye before he looked back down to Teddy. "Sorry...I didn't think about that." I felt my heart flutter. He didn't refer to Teddy! "Then...can I ask you something?"
It was my turn to look up at him. This was definitely out of character for him, but I guess this was an odd situation. "Sure. Anything!"
"...Why did you kill her?"
Oh...it was about that. "Well...I just didn't like her. I didn't like her trying to take you from me. You are the first really nice boy to take me seriously and I didn't want to lose that." I said, taming the answer down a little. If he knew I had a full-blown psychotic breakdown when I thought about him leaving me for her, I wasn't exactly thinking about talking it out with him at that time. Killing her seemed like the only possible reassurance.
"Is that what it was?" He asked, seeming stunned before his crazed smile came washing back over his face. "I'm sorry that we didn't realize that it hurt you. And now, I'm hungry."
I giggled happily as he pulled me toward him. He understood! And he was bringing me closer! I tilted my neck for him and he bit down. I let out a soft moan as I wrapped my arms around his neck to make sure I didn't go falling because of my legs giving out.
We stood there like that for what felt like a moment and an eternity all at once before he pulled away. He held me up as I breathed out a sigh of relief as I put my head against his shoulder. He picked me up and carried me home, setting me into the bed before leaving. I could only snuggle into my pillow as I fell asleep, happy knowing that he would no longer distance himself from me. Take that you stupid dead doctor.
