It all started with a runaway /s.m

Curiosty & a slight smile

I tossed and turned and tossed to no avail. I rolled over once more to look at the my phone that rested on my nightstand. 'Thursday December 17 4:22am' it read. I sighed a heavy sigh. The kind you felt in your heart. The kind you released when your heart was breaking. I crawled out of bed allowing my bear feet to touch the hard cold floor. Tonight or morning was one of those nights my heart felt empty and I knew why.

And that hurt.

I quietly walked down the hall. Tiptoeing up the few steps to the third floor. Forth door on the right. Shawn's was the first door on the left. I looked at the door giving it a tired smile as he were standing in front of it. I placed my hand on the old copper nob. This knob itself held memories. So many in fact I felt as if they were playing in front of me, overwelming me.

Flooding my mind. Claiming it.

I held the knob tight. My knuckles turned a bright shade of red. I placed my forehead on the door taking a deep breath. Opening this door could hurt me even more or relieve some of my pain and I was about to find out. Just as I was about to turn back around a tear fell on my hand and onto the knob. Lingering. I chuckled at the sign I was being given. I turned the knob taking a deep breath. The door felt heavy as if someone was standing on the other side trying to keep it closed. I pushed the polished white door open. The orange lights from behind the sheer curtains the only light in the room. I walked up to the window slowly drawing back the curtains. I placed my forehead on the cold glass allowing the sobs to over take my body. I shook against the glass tears falling freely onto the hard floor. Although in my head I felt as if I could hear each tear hit the floor with a loud thud. These nights didn't happen often but lately no matter how hard it tried to fight it the sadness seemed to over take my mind. This was a feeling I could not describe as hard as I tried. At first I suspected depression but this wasn't depression it was constant heartbreak. One person can only be lied to betrayed and left to bask in disappointment without starting to feel Sad for so long. Now my so long was up. No more time to fight it. I wiped my tears pulling myself off the glass. I walked over to the wall. My fingers brushed the walls of the almost dark room. The edges of the papers so sharp I almost cut my finger. I looked at all the Polaroids that hung on the wall with clothes pins and a string of blue and white Christmas lights. I had neglected to plug in the lights leaving me in the dark with my thoughts. I picked on of the the photos off the wall. It was one my favorites. The blonde baby girl looked at the camera with curiosity and a slight smile. Her daddy's hands held her in place to ensure her safety on his broad shoulders. She looked peaceful, happy even and it was because she felt loved. I was going to make sure she was going to feel loved and know she was loved forever. "She misses you daddy. We miss you.....I miss you" my sobs had disobeyed me by starting again. "I know your taking care of him up there for me thank you dad. I know you don't want me to be this way and I'm sorry." I fought the tears and got them to stop once again. I grabbed the old beaded notebook taking a second to admire its beautiful array of colors. I opened a random page picking up the pen and begun writing. This was a tradition when I felt this way. I'd write the first quote that came to mind. Each quote was one of my own. Original. This was the best way to express the emotions I have yet to understand. I heard a door in the house close softly. I got off the ground I had managed to slide down to while writing. Picking up the book placing it on the love seat in the corner of the room near the window. Not before placing the photo in the book saving my page. I picked up the book once more kissing the photo kissing it placing it back in the book and the book on the seat. I reached for the knob slowly opening the door sticking out my head looking both ways before exiting the room closing the door behind me. My hand lingered on the knob "Happy birthday daddy" I whispered before letting go and walking down the hall.

Shawn's pov

I was awaken when I heard the soft sounds of a door closing down the hall. I glimpsed at the clock on the wall. 4:25 it read. I looked up at the ceiling. The thoughts of what happened last night come rushing in a smile made its way to my face. I felt my stomach flip a few times at the thought of Emma.

I sound like a school girl describing her first crush......

This was insane! Just a few hours ago I was sitting in my hotel bored out of my mind watching reruns of The 100. That seemed like years ago compared to now. Now here I am laying in a bed of a girls house I don't even know.

That sounded horrible......

The strange thing was despite the fact I just met Emma I feel as if I'd known her my whole life. The more I thought about the brown haired beauty the more I wanted to hear her laugh, feel her lips against mine. Is it possible to like someone you just met? Then that's when it hit me.

Do I like Emma Johnson? Or is it just pure infatuation?

I sighed looking at the clock again knowing two things. I wasn't going back to sleep and I had to get going soon if I wanted to live to see tomorrow. I climbed out of bed opening the door slowly in order to keep quiet. Just as I was going to step out Emma appeared. I rushed back in leaving the door open a crack, just enough to watch Emma.

You're a creeper now great job

She exited the room, closing the door. Her small hand lingered on the knob not quite ready to let go. She whispered something I couldn't catch before walking past my door and down the steps. I shrugged it off before remembering Emma's room was on the second floor and this was the third. Whatever was behind that door was not Emma's room and as bad as it was I wanted to know what was in store on the other side of Emma Johnson's secret door.

So hi guys! I apologize if adding this piece makes no sense but...I'M ALIVE & updates will start coming I promise  just got a new laptop so nothing is stopping me now.