The Girl You Never Noticed

Chapter 1:The Beginning

Cold wind caresses my skin, the dark room enveloped my emotions, and the loneliness is slowly killing me while staring at the window where your angelic face is visible. You're near yet so far. You're just like one meter away yet unreachable. Mesmerizing and memorizing every inch of you drive me to the painful reality. I don't know how, when, and why it happens but one thing is for sure, you make me fall for you deeply. Before, you're just nothing to me. We never got a chance to be classmates but when we step on grade 11 we were classmates. Just few days being with you in the same room was just like a normal day, a boring day, nothing new. But as time pass by, my world began to rumble. You got my attention. I start on noticing everything you does. I saw everything about you perfect. From how your eyes twinkle, how you flip your hair and fix it in one side, how your smile can make me melt and my heart scream in hell, from the way how you turn my world upside down and how your pointed nose makes me fall deeper. You didn't notice how much I adore you. I choose to hide my feelings 'coz I know that I'm not the kind of girl you'll like. From the day that my world depends on you, I started dreaming about us being together but reality strikes me, I'm out of your league. But I never stopped to dream that maybe, just maybe, one day you'll notice me. Even just a glance from you would be enough for me.

Tick-tock from the clock interrupted me. As I saw the time, I realised that I almost spend my whole day thinking about you, again. I decided to leave the dark room and continue my life to the real world.

I'm walking alone again on the way to my next class and then I remember, we are in the same class . How can I act normal again in front of him? It is one of the hardest part being your crush's classmate or so I thought it's just a crush. Ugh! I'm so stupid falling in love with him. And now I can't even compose myself and get my ass inside of that room.

"Just walk and get inside, act natural that is just what you need to do". I said to myself trying to convince every guts I have. After arguing to myself I decided to enter the room. The noise filled my ear but I didn't care because all I care about is you. Greetings from my classmates were the first that meet me half way on the way to my seat.

"Good Morning,Penelope "

"Hi,Pen"

"Have a nice day"

These are just the few greetings that made my day. I hope you greet me too, but no words came from you. You just sit on your chair and stare to another girl. Did you like her? I want to ask you that but who am I to ask. I'm just nothing to you. I have no right to ask those kinds of questions. How I wish I'm the one you're looking at right now. How I wish I'm one of the reason why you happily go to school. How I wish I'm the reason behind your every smile. But I think this wishes of mine will stay wishes forever.

Penelope : Good Morning,Philip.

Philip : Good Morning too,Penelope. Your voice seems cheerful, but I'm your best friend. You can't hide the pain that is visible to your eyes from me. Is it because of him again?

Penelope : No. I think it's just your imagination. I'm happy! Don't worry, I can handle myself.

Philip : Oh! Come on,Pen. I know you. I know you're not okay. You can share what's on your mind. We're friends right? You can trust me on this.

Penelope : I don't need to tell you why. You already know the reason. We have the same thoughts running in our mind. I just wish everything will turn out fine.

Philip : Oh! Yeah, right! It is about him again. Are you not tired of being invisible to his world? Are you not tired of being stupid for him?

Penelope : No, I'll never get tired if it's about him. I'll just give up if he push me away and throw me out of his life.

Philip : Be practical,Pen . You do not even exist in his world.

Penelope : I'll wait until I'll be worth it for him. I'll wait until I can.

Philip : You're really unpredictable. I didn't know that you're that kind of girl. Your love is too pure and true.

Penelope : Sssssshhhh! shut up,Philip . You're making this more complicated for me. Someone might hear you. Just keep to yourself what you know. I know I'll look stupid if he finds out my feelings for him.

Philip . Okay. Don't worry,Penelope . You can trust me on this.

Penelope : Yeah! I know. Just remember I can kill you if you didn't shut your mouth.hahaha.

Philip : Are you scaring me? Hahaha

Penelope : hhmmm! It's kinda like that.

Philip : Do I need to get scared? Hahaha

Penelope : That does depend on you if you'll take my treat as a joke or put in a serious way.

Philip : hhhmmm! I think you can't do that so I'll take it as a joke. hahaha

Penelope : Ugh! You're really an asshole. Don't make me do it,Phil.

Philip : Chill,Penelope. I'm just trying to lighten the mood.

Penelope : Oh! Really? I think your making the opposite.

Philip : No! I'm just trying to cheer you up. Look at your face, your stressing yourself. You needed to cheer up sometimes.

Penelope : Yeah! I know I'm ugly you don't need to say it in my face.

Philip : Hey! Come on. I didn't mean that way. You look like you're just the one who is hurting in this world. You should smile sometimes to lighten your whole being.

Penelope : Yeah! I'm trying.

Philip : I don't think your trying.

Penelope : How can you say that?

Philip : You didn't even smile.

Penelope : (I smile sarcastically)

Philip : That smile is obviously sarcastic. hahaha

Penelope : I think it's really kinda hard to do.

Philip . You always say things are hard to do. You don't even try.

Penelope : But I'm trying!

Philip : Yeah, right! Say that to your face.

Penelope : You're really a jerk

Philip : Yeah! I know. Do I need to thank you on that? hahaha

Penelope : Ugh! You're pissing me off.

Philip : hahaha. Come on, Penelope. I just wanted to make you happy.

Penelope : Yeah! Thank you,Philip.

Philip : No prob, Penelope . I just want the old Penelope back, the one who is smiling like a crazy person all the time. I just miss thePenelope who act like she didn't even have a problem.

Penelope : how I wish thatPenelope would come back soon. (I smile sincerely this time)

Feeling the presence of our teacher,Philip and I suddenly stop talking. Its study time again. Then time goes by. Listening to the teacher, sitting on this white coated chair and writing is the only thing I did almost all day.

My eyes descry for your Greek god-like face. I found you in front of this four corner room where I was stock with my love for you. You're just walking with a smile on your face without noticing that there's a girl who's staring and adoring you the whole day. And this girl is no other than ME. This day, I remain unnoticeable by you, again. And I think, for now, I call it a day. As I feel tired, I lay down on my bed, and then Darkness filled my sight.