My Life Story

my thoughts tonight..

As I'm sitting here, I really don't know what to do tbh. My brother most likely told me he doesn't care about me and my sister, and my mom acts like she loves me but I don't think she does. Man, ion got no body. People out there acts like my friends, but tbh they just call themselves that. For one, if you bring my dad into an argument I fully don't have any respect for you, or if you said "stop bringing your dad into an argument as an excuse" like man, if you ever tell me that please never call me your "friend" because I promise you ill never call you a "friend." The only people I need in my life is Haley and Blair, the rest I'm sorry but I really don't wanna be in alot of drama shit! The people I once called my "best friends" aren't shit to me anymore.. I swear I now know who my real friends are! I seriously hated yesterday! I lost my dad on that day and better yet I lost a so called friend that I fully lost all my respect for and then I lost my best friend! Have y'all ever lost your best-friend? I mean it hurts like hell, but you know you have to move on so they can be happy. People don't know that I'm depressed. When they see me at school they think "She's so happy, she has a perfect life, she has a cute laugh" but have they noticed? My laugh is fake, I try to make people happy because I know how it feels so feel like you have no one.. everyone really does think I'm a happy girl, but I'm also the girl who cries herself to sleep at night. It hurts like hell knowing your "best-friend" has other friends that they talk shit about you. I swear yesterday when I lost my dad on that day, I really thought that I should've ended it all, what a perfect day because i lost my dad on that day, my "best friends" and just yesterday was hell. So, if you think this chapter is about you, it probably is. Just know that I fully don't have any respect for you since you told me I "bring my dad into an argument as an excuse" and to the other one I'm still here for you, no matter what we go through.