It Isn't Easy || kth

Chapter 10

Zahara: *currently just in her own world*

Tae: *puts his feet in the water as well*

Zahara: *takes a few seconds before opening her eyes and looking at Taehyung*

Tae: *looks back at her and gives her a reassuring smile*

Zahara: *smiles weakly, looks down* I'm scared, really scared. My father is the person that I have most feared in my own life so far and the man I most hate. *sighs* you deserve to know what's going on, what happened between my father and I just like the rest of the boys do. After I tell you, I'd like for you to tell them, because *sighs again*

Tae: it's okay, I'll do it for you.

Zahara: *looks up at him* thank you..*looks out to the water again* where do I even begin? My father..he's an awful person. He's the reason I believe I wasn't talented. He's the reason why I didn't start YouTube with my talents. He's the reason why I developed depression, anxiety, insecurity, and more. *tearing up as she has flashbacks* he made my life as I was growing up an actual living hell. He abused me. Not just verbally but physically too. Living under his roof was like a prison-no, worse which probably doesn't seem possible but yeah. I don't like going into to much detail with anything about him..*a few tears roll down her cheek as her voice begins to crack* h-he tried to rape me one night. My mom was home but he had drugged her to make her pass out.....I remember that night like it was yesterday..I remember smashing my lamp over his head and I remember running away that night. I ran to my cousin's girlfriend's house and I stayed there for two nights. I would have stayed longer but I thought of my mom...Not even what he does to me is the worse part for me. For me the worse part is how he treats my mother. He treats her like a toy. Just picks her up, plays around with her, when he's bored, just drops her and picks up another. Yet, he's never asked for a divorce. He abuses her too. I don't know how it's been since I've left but, I know nothing most likely changed between the two. My mom is still with him though because he's got her convinced that without him, she would be nothing. The things I'm doing now, all began because I want change for my mom. She doesn't deserve to live the way she does. *by now she's just crying*

Tae: *pulls her into his arms, wrapping his arms around her, letting her cry on him* how come you've never called the police?

Zahara: he threatened me, which still sticks with me today. If I ever the call the police, my mom and I will die. He's got people for it..and even under protection, it WILL happen. He has had people killed before...

Tae: *rubbing circles onto her back, letting his chin rest upon her head*

Zahara: I-I'm terrified Taehyung...what is he doing here? I don't want to go alone tomorrow..what if he's there?

Tae: I wish I knew the answer to that question, really and I spoke to Hobeom hyung. He said he'll be working out something so that you aren't alone. I wish I could go with you but I can't since the boys and I have concerts-

Zahara: it's okay, you have to work Tae.

Tae: *pulls away a bit, looks at her and wipes her tears away with his thumb* don't cry..I don't like seeing you like this.

Zahara: I'm sorry..

Tae: don't apologize

Zahara: thank you. Thank you for being here for me. For always being there for me. I'm sorry that there are things that I have hid from you but-

Tae: I completely understand, Zahara. It's okay. *smiles warmly*

Zahara: *slightly smiles, lays her head back on his chest, listening to his heartbeat, his heart rate rises*