WHAT WAS I THINKING?

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by Sahilthewriter

by Sahilthewriter

The night before, I made you mad
I wasn't appreciating, the love that I had.

I came home so drunk, I was really quite late
I left you alone, sitting home there to wait,

I was too self involved, I wasn't using my head
Alcohol took over, its hunger I fed
I was drinking too often, I thought I was fine
Too blinded to realize, the problem was all mine.

I was never mad at you, I was mad at myself
I let life pass me by, seemed it was on the back shelf
I blamed all of my problems, on everyone but me
Destined for ruins, and alone I would be.

I made a bad choice, I should have been there with you
My greatest mistake, and there was nothing I could
do,

I tried to get sober that night, but made it worse than you know,
I hated myself cause I resorted to blow,

That night I never came home, cause I felt too much shame,
You'd be able to tell and there was only me I could
blame.

I text you that night, to say tomorrow I would call
The next day with a hangover, I would for-get that all.

I went through my next days, scared you'd be mad
Hiding ashamed, not thinking you were sad.

I forgot I had hurt you, I couldn't remember last night
My words cut you deep, on the phone in our fight,
You wanted to love me to work through it all out,
I didn't know that I was too scared you would
shout,

I gave it some time, to get my head straight
I took way too long, how long should you wait?

You had now left me, When I got my priorities in line
I wanted to marry you, but you were no longer
mine.

I cried and I lost it, how could I mess up so bad,
this had all happened cause I spent to much time being mad.

I got over my issues, I finally see clear
I was drinking and hiding, I had too much fear
The old me is gone, but how could you know
I wish I still had you, how I wish that was so.

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EVERYBODY DESERVES A SECOND CHANCE IN THEIR LIVES BUT DID THEY DESERVE IT OR NOT IS DEPENDS UPON YOU.

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