We get to the hotel and are immediately handed our key cards. It turns out that they have me rooming with Jacob which I'm really happy about.
We all go to our rooms and I lay down on the bed. "Baby can we please go swimming?" Jacob whines lightly. I chuckle and say," No I wanna lay down!" He laughs and lays down beside me. "Babygirl come on" he whispers in my ear.
"Jacob I'm tireddddd can we please just swim tomorrow?" He rolls his eyes and pouts. I kiss his nose and say," Tomorrow I promise." He lays down beside me and soon enough we're both out like a light.
I wake up to Jacob looking at me. "Good morning gorgeous"
"Hey there handsome"
He moves my hair out of my face and I smile lightly. His eyes widen and he jumps up. "Let's go swimming!!" I laugh and get up. I grab my swim suit and go in the bathroom and change. I go back into the room and notice he's already gone. That boy and swimming I swear. I put on one of Jacob's tee shirts and a pair of my Nike shorts. I get on some nike slips and grab the key card and my phone.
I go downstairs and find the pool pretty easily. It turns out all the guys are down there. I walk in and hear catcalls and I roll my eyes playfully. "Ayeeee she's mine!" I hear Jacob say.
I put my phone and key card down on a chair and take his tee off. I take my shorts off too and walk over to the boys. "Hey losers!" I say as I sit down by the pool. Jacob swims over to me puts his head on my thighs. "Babbyyy they're looking at you!" I laugh and say," I'm all yours it's okay." He looks down and a troubled look comes over his face.
"What's that?" he asks pointing to my hip. That's when I see my cuts poking out. I completely forgot that those were there. "Um I cut myself on something it's no big deal. I cleaned it out." He looks at me suspiciously but drops it.
Soon enough, we're all playing chicken. Me on Jacob's back and Carter on Taylor's back. "COME ON CARTER! ARE YOU SCARED OF DEFEAT?" He pushes me really hard but I don't fall. With all my might I push against him as hard as I can and he falls over. I cheer victoriously and everyone laughs. We stay at the pool for another two hours until we decide to go get lunch.
When me and Jacob get in the hotel room he turns to me looking very upset. "Let me see." He says pointedly. I know what he's talking about but I don't know if I want him to see just yet. "See what?" I say innocently. "Where you cut yourself. I'm not stupid Ally." I look down at my feet and pull my bikini bottoms down a little bit. "There." He inspects them and starts pacing around the room. "Ally why? Why could you have just talked to me before you did... that?" I sigh and sit down on one of the beds. "I don't want to worry you when I have bad thoughts. And I especially don't want you to think I'm crazy." He gets on his knees in front of me and holds my hands tightly. "I don't think you're crazy. And it's okay to have bad thoughts. But you're so incredibly amazing and I don't want anything to happen to you okay? I love you." I put our hands up to my face and kiss his hand. "I love you." He gets up and says," Now where's your blades? I'm throwing them away."
"What? No!"
"Babe please? I want to make sure you won't hurt yourself."
"Makeup bag." I hate when I give in so easily but I know that he's just trying to help me.
"Please don't cut anymore babe okay? Cutting-"
Just then there's a knock on the door. He opens it to see Cam. And he's holding my blade still. "Why do you have a blade in your hand?" He asks, suspiciously. He looks at me and I can see in his eyes he knows why. "Ally..." Cam whispers quietly. "Jacob can you give us a minute?" I ask him. He nods his head and walks out the room, shutting the door quickly.
"Al I thought you stopped."
"I got in a fight with dad."
"What happened?"
"He has a new woman. He got her pregnant and now he's marrying her. I've never even met her. So I told him I'm not coming back." I choke out in between sobs. Cameron comes to me and hugs me tightly. "It'll be okay, Ally. You have us, we're your family. Okay? Don't ever feel like hurting yourself is the right thing to do. You're my sister, and if I lost you I don't know what would happen to me. If you ever feel like you want to cut or do anything to hurt yourself, tell someone first. I love you okay? And that prick that we call a father is an idiot if he can't see your worth." I wipe my eyes and say," I promise I'll tell someone before. I don't want to hurt myself anymore."
He hugs me and I tell him I'm tired and I might just skip lunch today. He agrees and leaves the room. I change into sweatpants and a sports bra and lay down. I connect my phone to the charger and I hear Jacob come in.
He lays down next to me and says," I love you, nerd." And with that I fall asleep.
HEY MY BEAUTIES❤️❤️❤️ I know I haven't updated in forever and I am so sorry! I promise to be more active now that the flood is over and things are starting to go back to normal!! THANK YALL SO MUCH FOR THE SUPPORT YALL MEAN SO SO SO MUCH TO ME💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
