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My one last goodbye Bebilovesss...

To all my readers.. this part you are about to read is purely about me and how I am saying my last goodbye to the one girl that I loved.. Na-late kasi ako ng dating.. We met while she has already someone. And I love her so much that I am letting her go to be with the person she really loves. I maybe hurting but I know I will be better in time. Lahat ng mababasa nyo dito, sinulat ko ng buong puso. I sent her the letter last night through FB. The pain I am feeling right now is unbearable but I know I'll slowly get by.. Bi... Thank you for saving my heart before.. thank you  for letting me heal with all the ordeal I've been through. Thank you for simply loving me for who I am and loving me more at my weakest.. I will never forget all those times bi.. It may not be the perfect time for us but the way your hands fitted mine is more than enough proof that it was love and pure love all along.. I wish you well. I wish you best. I would still love to see you in my dreams.. i love you to the moon and back and through infinite skies. I do. I really do..

Hi Bi,

First off.. belated happy birthday. I hope you had a great one. Mukha naman :) Saklap hanggang sa huli hindi kita pwede pangalanan,,, As I write this open letter, I can see how happy you are sa updated fb mo. Needless to say I am happy for you. Bi.. I can't go on the road's too long.. and now things has been said and done.I know ang dami nating pinagawayan.. maliit o malaki. But this time to clear things out hindi laging ikaw ang may kasalanan.. May times ako bi.. immature din ako.. kasi takot ako mawala ka. God knows how scared I am when we fight and were almost calling things quits. I always thought na ikaw yung mas maraming matutunan sa relationship natin.. Turned out na ako pala ang mas maraming matutunan sayo.. The value and love of family you showed me is something na I will always be proud of of you. Up to this day I look up at you on how you love them and how you sacrifice for them.. I AM PROUD OF YOU and the woman that you have become. You won't be the fault in my stars but rather you will always be my best connection to them.. You taught me well.. I don't want to know if what you had for me was love or ask the question if you really love me.. I am damn scared to know the answers. I'd rather remember those things by how we held each other's hands.. Regardless of all your flaws.. I never loved you less.. mahal kita at minahal kita kung ano meron o wala ka.. It's just that you are that one person I can never have. I don't blame you on anything. Nalate ata kasi ako ng dating.. I will live up to the last promise that I said to you.. we may have ended like this but it doesn't mean I'm letting go because I don't love you.. I love you so much that I am letting go for you to be with the real person you really love.. I had the best 5 months of my life when I was with you.. I finally have accepted the part that you are that one person that I loved unconditionally.. yet you are the same only person that in reality I can never really have.. Everyday that I am with you, It always felt like the first time I laid eyes on you and fell. I can never forget that white shirt you wore that day going to Starmall. I'll never forget the days you spent with me in LP. Those times that I cooked for you lalo na yung spicy adobo mo at bicol express.. I'll always cherish those few nights you fell asleep in my arms.. they were the best.. ikaw lang maaalala ko sa bff fries at halflong.. Milo na malamig pantagal ng lasing.. budol fight?? liempo sa 711 at monster winer pati na ang pagiging number 1 fan ng nachos ko.. nasasaktan man ako I know everything will all be better in time.. Though it's time to grow it doesn't mean that I'm stopping myself from loving you.. It will always be there.. same as the fact that I will still be here for you.. no matter what. Loving you does not end today or in this letter.. I am just giving you the freedom kasi db ganon naman talaga ang love? You love unconditionally and you expect nothing in return. Minahal kita. Mahal kita. Mahal na mahal kita. I'll always love you to the moon and back and inifinte skies.. Thank you for saving my heart before..

Signing Off,

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