No Forever | Z.M (AU)

Chapter 9: Talking

unedited.

"What the hell?" I yell at the snogging couple over there.

I can't believe my eyes. Never in millions years I thought Niall and Lauren would ever make out, I mean Lauren is a sweet personand she always studies, she's a smart person and her work means so much to her. And there's Niall, well he's Niall. Niall is my best friend and I know him too well, he never ever liked girls; only like friends but nothing else and its been 2 and a half years since he kissed a girl. He is fucking gay, for crying out loud.

Lauren quickly jumps from Niall's lap and she sits beside him. Niall puts his face in his hands and Lauren is shaking beside him and she's breathing very fast. "What the hell is going on?" I try to keep my voice low and stay calm. Niall opens his mouth to speak but no words come out, he doesn't know what to say, neither does Lauren.

"I....um...I was..." She stutters. "I-" before she could continue I interrupt her.

"No, don't talk Lauren, okay? And you," I point my finger on Niall, "you, how dare you? I was at a fucking hospital because my brother got shot by a gun and no one was there for me and I called you thousands of times and you didn't even bother answering your goddamn phone, you declined me because you know why? You were too busy here making out with my roommate." I shout at both of them and Zayn is standing behind me and trying to keep me calm but I can't. "Isy, I sw-" Niall starts to speak but I cut him off, again.

"No, Niall no. Just get out!"

"Isy, please..."

"I said Get. Out. Now." I demanded. He sighs heavily and nods his head and leaves the room. "I think I should get going too." Zayn says. "Yeah," I say, while keeping my eyes on Lauren and she is staring at me with bloodshot eyes. Zayn leaves the room, too and its just me and Lauren in the room.

She takes a moment to speak, "I was....really.." She pauses and puts her face in her hand and starts to sob. "I can't believe you, Lauren."

"Please don't be angry." She cries to me.

"I'm not angry, I'm just disappointed." I lie. I am angry.

"You can just please listen to me and I will explain everything to you right now, please listen."

"Fine, explain." I say and I sit on my bed to hear Lauren's explanation. This should be interesting.

"Okay, after me and Niall left the party because you know what happened, I couldn't stop crying and I was so depressed and upset and I couldn't hold my tears, so anyways Niall walked me to my room and he said he wanted to get me inside to make sure I'm fine, so I invited him in and then we sat on my bed and then Niall kept on saying these nice things to me and that I deserve better than Collin and he was just really sweet to me and then before we know it we ended up kissing." She explains, "I'm so sorry, Isy." She cries, again.

"Its okay-" before I could finish, she spoke, "I didn't know Niall was your boyfriend, I swear to god I didn't mean to kiss him." She buries her face in the pillow from the embarrassment.

"Wait, what? Lauren, Niall isn't my boyfriend." I laugh bitterly.

"Huh?" She says with confusion look on her face.

"Niall is my best friend."

"Oh." It was the only thing she said.

"And he's gay." I whisper low so she won't hear me.

"Excuse me? But did you say he is gay?"

I nod my head, "Yes, he's fucking gay."

"Are you serious?" she asks insuring that I'm not messing with her.

"No Lauren, I'm messing with you, of course I'm serious. Why did you think I flipped out?" I throw my hands in the air, frustrated about this whole situation.

"I, uh, I don't know. I was surely wasn't expecting that." she stutters and shuts her eyes.

I sigh and shake my head. "I'm sorry you had to found out after making out with him."

"Its okay, I was going to find out sooner or later, thanks though." She smiles and I smile weakly back to her.

"You know what, Lauren? you don't have to fight so hard for someone who totally doesn't deserve you because you are beautiful and I'm pretty sure there is someone out there who is incredibly crazy about you and trust me, you will find him really soon." I advice her, while taking off my clothes.

She replies to me by hugging me, tight. I can feel a tear dropped on my shoulder, "Why are you crying now?" I say, chuckling nervously and she's still wrapped around my arms.

"Because no one has ever been this nice to me," she speaks through her sob, "thank you, Isy, for everything." She says and kisses my cheek.

~

Days goes by and now its 2 in the afternoon. I didn't go my classes today and to be honest I don't feel like I ever want to go to. My stomach twists and I feel sick. I threw up today, three times and Lauren didn't even notice, she fell asleep so fast yesterday and she is snoring now. I don't know what to do now, I want to call Niall to come over to watch a movie or do anything together, when I'm always sick would bring me some chocolate and a drink from Starbucks and comes over, so we can watch a movie and we would also do popcorn but we can't do these things because I'm still upset at Niall and I have no one to hang out with, Lauren said she is going to visit her family today and she will be back late, speaking of family, I grab my phone to call and check on Harry, I wish I could go and visit him but I can't, dad doesn't want me to, which is pissing me off, like why? After three rings, my dad answers the phone, "Isy, hey baby girl." He says in a excitement voice.

"Hey dad." My voice is shaky and my throat burns.

"Baby, are you okay?" He asks in a worried voice.

"Yeah," I lie.

"You sure?"

"Yes Daniel, I'm fine," every time when my dad is annoying or I'm pissed at him I call him by his first name, "I just called you make sure Harry is fine, how is he doing?"

"He is catching up, love. He is going to leave after a week or so."

"Okay, send him love from me and tell him I miss him."

"Sure thing. Did you go to your classes today?" He suddenly asks. Why does he have to ask right now?

"Um....well...oh dad my roommate Lauren is calling me so I got to go, I call you later okay bye." I hang up the phone quickly before he could even the chance to respond.

That was close.

I lay my back on the bed and start to think about Harry, is he going to make it? Of course he is, your father just told he's catching up. my subconscious mocks me. 

But what if he doesn't make it after all and things get ugly. I reply back to her. 

You're unbelievable.

Shut up, bitch. I yell at her in my mind.

Mum would always tell me trust the voice inside your head. Speaking of mum, I Wonder what will happen if my mum haven't left us and she's still with us. Will things be different? I wonder what she looks like right now, she used to have dark black hair, it was just under her shoulder which was kinda short and she had curls, so it made her hair even shorter, she also had brown eyes. She was the most beautiful woman I have ever seen, but she is no long there. I don't even know if she is still alive or she's married to someone else or what if she's working or not, I just hope she's okay and happy. Actually no, I don't want her to be happy, even if it's selfish from me but she deserves it, after what she did, she deserve it more than anyone. I hope she gets paid for what she did and I hope-

A knock on the door brings me back to reality.

I get up from my bed and walk to the door, I open it and I found,

"Zayn?" I blink again to focus if it's really Zayn or I'm just imagining.

"Hey," He says swinging back and forth on his tip toes.

"What are you doing here?" He hesitates for a moment and finally speaks, "I need to talk to you."