Love no hoe

chapter 4

Andrea's p.o.v

i was counting my money until i heard a large bang on my door. i hid my money some where safe and hurried to open the door.

if i open the door to late I'm dead. i know all these lil late things are stupid.....but if you were me and wanted to survive. ya ass will be opening shit on. his beatings are brutal. i limp every where i go.

"i don't see my dinner downstairs do you?"

i was about to say something smart. buti didn't. i went down stairs and made him dinner. i gave him a beer and a blunt...which was going to make him stop hitting me well for today...at least.

i went and told him dinner was ready. he got up from his place and pushed past me. with out saying thank you...its the usual.

what people don't understand is.... i just want to be praised by someone. like telling me I'm doing a good job... or they love me. i cant remember if i even got one.

i sighed and went back to my room. i miss the times where my abuser wasn't an abuser.....yes there are times were he didn't abuse me..... i loved those days.....but day by day he started to change... Corina became my enemy.. i started being abused...

enough talk about them happy times.. i don't deserve them..

i felt some splashes of water fall on my hands... i rubbed my face and felt more water. i didn't realize i was crying. see this is why i hate thinking of my happy life. because i start to cry knowing that i might not even make it through..one day he might beat me so bad ill die..

i wiped my face and went to the bathroom. i took all my makeup of.. even the ones covering my bruises. i stared at my body. how could i have gotten so many bruises that you cant even see my real skin color. all the scars i have it makes no sense. i don't even think coco butter can fix all this shit. once i lose a bruise i get another one...

i put my hair in a ponytail. i stripped out of my clothing and put a shower cap on. i turned the water on warm. i stepped in shower and let the warm air hit my body. it was so relaxing..yet painful because of the new bruises. i washed all over my body and turned the water off. i wrapped a towel around my body and stepped out. i did all off my hygiene. i didn't put make up on because i was going o where.

this is the first time in years since I've done this. i usually do this when i have a couple of bruises. but i don't feel like putting all that shit on my body.

i felt like doing something nice... so i knocked nervously on my abusers door..

abuser's p.o.v

i heard a knock.

"COME IN", i yelled.

Andrea's p.o.v

i nervously opened his door and stepped in his office.

"what the hell your ass want!?!?", he questioned.

"well i was ugh wondering if you needed anything...", i spoke softly.

"you want to do a favor for me ha get the fuck outta here don't bother me with that shit. ill tell u if i need something you don't ask me", he said saying one of the rules he gave me.

"but i was just trying to",- i didn't even get to finish my sentence before....

Andrea's p.o.v

i didn't even get to finish my sentence before he grabbed me by my neck and threw me to the wall. it hurt like hell. i stood up thinking it was over....but it wasn't. sadly this was just the beginning...

he grabbed me by hair and flung me to the ground. i cried silently. he got on top of me and started punching me hard asf.

"I SAID NO SO WHY TF YOU KEEP PUSHING IT??", he yelled at me. i cried out because of the pain.

"I'M SORRY I WAS JUST TRYING TO HELP",i wined.

"SHUT THE HELL UP". he brutally beat me than he threw me out the room. like literally threw me out the room.

i laid on the floor still as can be. i really couldn't move a muscle. but i knew i had to get ready for school tomorrow.

i turned on my side groaning loud. i turned once more so i was on my stomach. i reached my arms up on the ground and pulled my self trying to crawl to my room.

he yelled at me and told me to stfu with all my moving and groaning. it hurt to roll my eyes so i let it go. i finally crawled all the way to my room.

i closed my door and used the knob to help me stand up. it hurt like hell. i slowly stood up and limped to my dresser. i got some clothes to wear for tonight and tomorrow. i placed my school clothes on my chair and my other clothes in my bed.

i walked to the bathroom and closed the door. i took off my clothes and stepped in the shower. i left the hot steamy water fall on my skin. i moaned because it just felt so good. i washed my hair and shaved.

i wrapped the towel around my body n stepped out. i turned my flat irons on and lotion my body while it was heating up. i straightened my hair and put my PJ's on and went to sleep.