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JaKrisM

Some people are stubborn, and some people aren't.

It's been twelve nights in a row, and on the phone is the same person again. It's not that this man hadn't been given his last words, but I guess you can say that he's just one of those people in the past who come around on their knees to beg for forgiveness and chances once they realised what a fool they've been to walk away from you.

It wasn't her dream either, to see good–bye become the only thing they get to say before they last talked to each other some years ago. Which lovers spend time just to end the fort made of love and faith they've built together?

Maybe some of us think of it as a game you play to see who's better as you improve your skills, but it won't get you nowhere. You're stuck with the memories although the persons are no longer there.

That's what happened to Jackson.

He thinks, doing what he used to do back then when he was trying to get Sarang wrapped around his finger will somehow change her mind thus accept him back. But Sarang is/knows better than that. She now knows what's good and what's not, too.

And Jackson is not going to be the reason why, in a couple of weeks, she remains silent after Kris said his own vow. It's going to happen. And Jackson is not going to be the reason why.

But tonight, it takes her back to the one that changed her life.

*

Sarang has been lonely for quite a long time because she chose to. Supposedly, she could taste the freedom by then, but it wasn't even at the tip of her tongue.

The matter of fact that Jackson had left her with stories she couldn't tell anybody no matter how hard things were for her, put her in trouble. It's not that hard to tell, but . . . they just don't slip that easy, even up until now.

There had been times and one of them was when she recklessly wandering down the block, so lost in thoughts and almost getting hit by a car. And she definitely remembers it how much she didn't care because why not? To her, everything was over.

Just like her love life.

Perhaps it was her fault for being so daft about him, perceiving only greats and nothing hideous. Yet she wasn't wholly to be blamed. Jackson was the one who acted like he'd tried to make things last when she was the one who did most of the work. She opted to stay because he promised that the next time he was going to save her.

From what? There is no next time now.

*

The scars that have been lingering since have never been cured.

Until that night; where they were at the least briefly forgotten; where Kris, as drunk as a moron, knocked on her door and clung onto her the whole time. (He acted like/thought Sarang was a friend he's currently dating, and whilst his state was too ridiculous to even consider subconscious, however, it is unknown if he was in pretence.) Something bothered her about missing Jackson thus literally missing other things as well. It didn't feel right. She didn't recognise happiness any more.

For once, Sarang didn't think about Jackson. For once, she thought about Kris and his gibbers about him, lying there on her bed all day whilst she makes him breakfast, lunch, snacks and dinner; and then they ought to do the cheesiest things out there; and then sprawl next to each other on the floor as Kris tells her things he has never said to anyone; and perhaps Sarang can do the same.

Sure, Kris was drunk and all, but he's also half–sober. How can a drunken person advise you on stuff he doesn't even do well at (since he was single by then)?

'You can be forty–five yet still be clueless about the definition of love; because it doesn't have any. You feel it when you feel it, and you know it when you know it. Twenty, thirty, sixty, a hundredth of times, though, you can still call it love. Who says love can't be found a lot? You don't get to decide it if true love comes only once or twice. You can't set up a rule in the name of it. Stupid.' Sarang isn't stupid after all. It's just that the ideas didn't move her that much, but she was thinking. About what Kris said: 'I'll take care of you.' And she wanted/was triggered to start seeing someone again.

She took it as slow as possible, but falling fast to Kris was unplanned with him looking like he's already looking, and she wasn't worried.

*

Not too long before Kris eventually asked for her hand in marriage, she and Jimin had agreed upon it that they're best staying as friends. Despite Jimin being there longer than neither Jackson nor Kris did, he doesn't mean more than the latter. Kris can ask her of this, however, she will never say it. Though, if she were to choose any of the three . . . let's just say that the conversation will turn into a whinge where a wild Jimin, who has appeared out of nowhere, comes in between and claims it if Sarang is all about him.

Kris doesn't care. Jimin isn't the one who gets her to say yes hence engaged to her. Besides, he's damn sure Sarang looks at Jimin the same way he does now. Before, he wanted to murder him each time the younger dropped by her house without warning (when the two of Kris and Sarang were at things) but it's okay now since he is . . . sort of . . . used to it.

What Kris isn't aware of, somehow, Jimin used to confess his feelings and how she makes him stronger, all the time. Some things are meant to be a secret.

Nonetheless, it became a problem when she hadn't told about Kris or introduced him to Jimin yet because she was unsure how yet both Jimin and Kris arrived on her doorstep at the same time one day. The looks on their faces as they narrowed their eyes at each other, oh my God, Sarang wanted to slam the door shut then go to sleep instead. Even sitting on each side of hers, they couldn't stop eyeing and mentally comparing the bouquets' sizes and types of flowers in their respective hands for her.

*

Today whilst walking down the aisle, she wishes nothing but the best for herself, Kris, Jimin, and even Jackson. She isn't sure if Jackson is doing all right these days, but he had stopped calling her since the night Kris snatched the phone away from her hand and left to talk to the younger one in private.

She has no idea what they'd conversed about, seeing that Jackson is right now there standing (then sitting) next to Jimin, who's trying so hard not to squint at him, and he's looking all composed and . . . he is smiling.

He gives her an 'okay' and then gestures it where his drags two pointer fingers from the corners of his eyes down his cheekbones as he frowns, and Sarang wonders if it means he is unhappy that she's getting married to someone else instead of him or that he simply kids it if she looks as great as she used to but he can't call her his any more.

Or he's just messing around and is making fun of her.

Either way, all that matter at the moment are her own deep breaths that she needs to take: This is when her arm is placed around Kris', linking. This is when they renew the oaths along with the feelings she once had for Jackson.

As her eyes brim with tears as Kris slides a ring on her forth finger, it feels likely to sympathise Jackson and Jimin. There is nothing she can now give them in return for what they have been giving her since.

Except for her choice to not pick any of them in exchange.

Some people are made for each other as lovers (because soul–mates can also be someone like Jimin who you don't get to put a ring on or Jackson who shows up at your wedding to make it up to his own broken heart), and some people aren't.

And as for Kris: Kris is the person who fits her idea of happiness perfectly.