PAPERCUT

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{an update for you lovelies ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ cause i'll be gone in about five weeks cuz school and shiteu }

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THE BOY WAS LYING ON HIS BED...

Jimin: i'm so sorry my baby
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The boy shifted in his bed as his thoughts were still in a mess. it was already four at morning and yet he wasn't able to get even a wink of sleep, he was in a conflict as his thoughts were clouded with the only girl that occupied his mind for so long. he wanted to do something and fast, time was already ticking and if he would just idle in his room things might get worse.

Jimin: i was too insensitive and i know even if how many times i apologize to you it won't mend nor heal the pain that i've given to you . . but i can't help myself that i really want to see you. i admit that i 'm a foolish boy for never trusting my senses and the way my heart would ache whenever i touched someone else other than you.
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the boy continued to press the keys in his phone as his tears begged to fall once more right after his eyes had just stopped crying a few moments ago.

jimin: i hate myself that i am the cause of all the pain you are going through. i promised that i would protect your smile but i was the first one to break the promise.
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jimin wiped the corner of his eyes as his vision were already a blur and a small sob escaped his lips.

jimin: i feel like a fool for even if this messages won't be sent unless somebody unblocked me from your contacts, i would still keep on sending these even if it reaches a hundred unsent messages.
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jimin stopped his fingers on its movements as he let his phone down on the cushion of his bed,  before he cupped his tear-stricken face and cried to his heart's content. the boy's shoulders shook with every sob he had let out from his lips. he was devastated, broken and well . . sad, how foolish of him to let someone who was always there to slip away.

Jimin: i miss you damn much and i now realize that this was what you were feeling for the past two years. the pain is intolerable and i wish i could just die rather than waking up everyday without you by my side. I . . as much as i want to be with you, hug you, hold you, kiss you and wrap my arms around you i can't do that anymore cause we're over and this is all because of me
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jimin's thoughts of chaemin overflowed in his mind. now that jimin's memories have come back, not only his heart was the only thing that keeps on bugging him with the pain but, it seems like his mind would make him feel more bad as it flashes countless of images of his happy memories.  

Jimin: I miss you minnie so damn much
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Jimin: I need to talk to you. i need you to know the truth, i need you baby. i need you so damn much that it hurts how this is all my fault that's why you slipped away from me. i wanna see you so much but i don't know how, i don't know what to do. i'm so lost and  i'm going to go crazy with this countless of thoughts and all of this confusions will all be resolved when i already have you by my side. {message could not be sent, the user is blocked}

Jimin: why did i ever let myself get trapped with the lies that my mother had said. i'm so sorry minnie. {message could not be sent, the user is blocked}