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Thank you for everything!!
Iris's pov
"You are so much braver than what you make it seem." Jinxx murmurs. I put my head down and sniffs. "If I'm so strong then why did I cut? Why couldn't I protect Destery from my dad when he hit him? Why couldn't I--" my voice hitches and I tear up really bad. I burry my face in my hands and run up the stairs. I run into my room and close the door and run into my bathroom. I rip a razor out of the package and start to tear it apart. Finally I have just a single blade. I kiss the blade and pull my bracelets off and take a deep breath. I drag the blade across my wrist once....... twice........ three times. Once I get to I think about 10 there's a nock at my bathroom door. "Iris.... can I talk to you?" It was Andy. "No. Not right now. I'm busy." Doing what? You just got up-- No. Iris. Iris please no...." I start to ball my eyes out and I hear him out his head against the door. "Iris.... please I'm begging you. Please don't. Don't do it." He pleads. "The damage is already done there's no point it's a waste of your breath and time. I'm not worth it." "No. No. No, Iris... your are worth everything and more weather you realize it or not." I look down at my wrist and see the little pool of blood forming right underneath it. "Iris, I'm coming in." The door nob turns and it slides open. I stare at the blood and he kneels down in front of me. "Baby, why?" he asks me with his eyes tearing up. "Because I'm a failure. I've failed Destery." I say choking through tears. "Baby, you saved him. You took so many beatings for him. And the way you talk about how hard he hit and seeing the marks on your face, if you would have left a year ago...... he wouldn't get to be here today with all of us. As a family." He gently grabs my arm and inspects. His fingers barely dance over my wrist to make sure they aren't deep. He gets peroxide and begins to clean up my wounds. Taking me over to the sink to do it. He looks over at me and grins a bit. He's wrapping up my wrist so it will stop bleeding. He clips it into place and looks down at me. I look up at him and try for a small smile and I don't quiet make it. He puts his index finger under my chin and tilts my head upward. I stare into his deep eyes. Those crystal blue eyes are very easy to get lost in. "Baby, you're worth everything and then some. You didn't fail Destery. You saved him. You became a part of something that every one of us needs. And if you haven't noticed........ We all already think of you guys as family." I give him a small fake smile. Crap!!!! "Please don't tell Destery. It hurts him when I do this." "Of course." He circles his arms around me. I melt into him and put my head against his chest. I inhale his sent of ciggerets, leather and some cologne I can't place. He holds me tight as I fight the tears threatening to spill if I'm not careful. "Come on baby, let's not scare them too bad." I nod as he takes my hand and leads me out of the room after we clean up my blood. We walk down stares and every one looks over at us. "Honey, I didn't mean to up set you." Jinxx begins. "No, you didn't I did it to my self." They look kind of sad. "Did you?" CC asks nervously. I nod slightly. None of them seemed mad at me. I try for a smile and say, "Thank you. You guys have no idea what you've helped me with. Even Destery. I'm sorry for acting like a mother to him all the time, it's just what I've done for so many years." "Honey, you guys are amazing! And you have nothing to apologize for, we understand." Jinxx says. Every one smiles. Andy had left my side when I began talking and now he has returned with a glass of water handing it to me. I didn't cover up my arm. the only thing that covered it up was the wrap that Andy had put on there. I felt some one staring at me so I look at every one. They had turned their attention back to the tv so I look at Andy. His eyes were burning into me. Not with anger though. He smiled a little at me and I blushed and turned away. I walk and sit next to Jake but still keeping a little distance. After two episodes of Breaking Bad, I head off. "Good night guys. Sleep well." "Good night beautiful!" Ashley yelled. I turned and smiled and saw Andy send a small glare over to him. What was that about. When he catches me looking he blushes. "Good night Iris. Sleep well." They all say. I walk up the stairs into my new my room. I crawl into bed and curl into a ball. I am still scared. What if they only did this if they thought they had to? I fall into a deep sleep. I wake up breathing heavy. I had another nightmare. I didn't scream cause I was used to them. I check the alarm clock on the night stand and see that it's 10:43. I swing my legs off the bed and grab some clothes and went to take a shower. It hurt with the new cuts and being all busted up. I sing some song softly so I wouldn't bother anyone. I sing one that I had written when I was younger. 15 to be exact.
Cause I get up and then I fall back down
I look up and there's no body around
It's quite and I hate the sound
So quiet and I hate the sound
How could I let myself come to this
I'll take one more drink and then I'll be dismissed
I'm left to walk this world alone
I like it better on my own
I finish and get out wrapping a towel around my body. More bruises had formed over night. I look at my ribs and see an ugly black, blue, and purple bruise. There was a small one on my arm. Barely something that people would look at. I towel dry my hair a bit. Then I put my new OM&M shirt and my black and gray checkered super skinnies. I straighten my hair and put my Batman snap back on tilting the bill up a bit. Now for the makeup. It took longer but I got it done. As soon as I walk out I hear a faint knock at the door. I walk over silently. I open it to see a little shirtless Destery putting a shirt on. "Hi sissy!!" He says happily. "Hey buddy! What are you doing up? Usually I have to wake you up!" I say playing around with him. He gives me a look then says, "The guys are going out to breakfast and said we had no choice but to go with them." He states matter-of-factly. I roll my eyes and he smiles. "Alright Des!! Lets go!"
A/N-
Hey guys! Sorry! I used Sleeping With Sirens song I'll Take You There. Just wanted to say that I do not own any thing except Iris and Destery! Everything else is.... well..... not mine. Love you!!
