life as a janoskianator

More surprises

I pinched myself ...I was not dreaming this was actually happening!

janoskian tickets and vip passes for friday night - on my freaking birthday!

after fangirling for 1 whole hour we decided to go shopping,  well Honey did at least.

"b-but Honey I don't have money , I think I should go home- I got rudely cut of,

"pfft..your not going back to that hell hall ..your staying with me for a couple of days until I know your feeling better, okay miss!? and I am buying you a new wardrobe and giving you a whole make over....cuz u really need one-" I cut her of and hugged her as tight as I could, she giggled and hugged me back "your more than a friend let alone my best friend,  your my family. ...my sister" Honey said while I on the other hand was just taking everything that has happened for these last 8 years, we were still hugging.

"your my only family" my voice broke half way but I ment every word.

so I was basically living with honey now , I left that so called house...I didn't even care but it's just my dad,  what i-if he comes back and this time finishes me , I know him to well he wont stop till he does!

The days went so fast with honey sadly the nights would drag, but today was the night before the concert and it had just gone midnight. I couldn't sleep I was to hyped for tomorrow,  just thinking about it made me want to squeal like a little girl who got her barbie doll ,(<don't even ask) I was to busy living in lala land when all of a sudden I heard a scratch on the window , I thought I was hearing things.

*scratch*

their it was again I got up and walked slowly closer to the window and as I got closer I heard whispers but the only words I could make out, the only words that I could here made me stop in mid tracks. .. "_____your mine___al____will be___"

I fell to the floor and held my knees tight to my face.

*tap tap tap* "one , two, three I know you can here me four, five__

"NOOOOOO" I screeched,  it was him "GET AWAY FROM ME YOU HERE ME !! DON'T COME NEAR ME ...JUST STOOOPPP!! HELP HONEY HELP!" I was screeching , yet I could here his weak laugh but the shadow from the window stayed it was almost as if___

"omg what happened ? why are u all the way over ther? are u okay? what happened? who are u shouting at?...."

and the questions kept coming but the figure out side the window stayed, I could feel my eyes get really glassy my thoughts were once again interpreted not by pointless questions but by to warming arms ...Honey's I stayed still not moving , not even daring to look away from the window , try hard not to blink but my eyes to glassy my eyelids prompted me to.

"he's here hes right her __w-we need to go " my voice was thick and I was just about breathing

her soothing voice came "no , no he's not here lovely he's far from here anyways we have an alarm system and the window u seem to be horrified from is lock-"

"NO NO IT'S NOT HE RIGHT OUT SIDE  , LOOK LLOOK OUT SIDE THE WINDOW, ...HEHE TOLD ME"

Honey obviously angry strutted herself to the window and ripped the curtains wide open , as she did I squeezed my eyes closed and breathed in so hard my ribs began to ache.

"See nothing , just a branch thats scratching and tapping the window" she sighed , as I began to gradually open my eyes still squinting " ..remember the old tree house and the big willow,  we built ?" she giggled so slightly "remember I wanted it pink and you wanted it blue and white , I pushed you and u pushed me back but I fell and dislocated my leg...u were so strong,  what happened?" her voice began to thicken.

my eyes were wide open , I was gazing out the window as the memories came back ...I remember feeling so bad I begged her for my forgiveness and promised she could paint it pink. .. I remember me and her mum painting it pink for her when she came back from the hospital , I hugged her so hard. ..never would I lose her again!

my stupidity struck me I stood up from my position and walked to her bed

"yea I'm heading to bed now" I dragged the feet across the floor , I was so tired.  I listened for a reply but she didn't,  she stood there examining were I was once sitting. 

I heard faint footsteps coming towards me and a dip in the bed , but I paid no attention and let my nightmares carry me away once 'again'.