Let me start off by defining Chain Smoker for you: it is someone who is stuck in a loop and doesn't get out because they have been stuck in this loop for a while, and that is just how it is. They don't really like the loop; they just don't know it. And they think they know who they are, but once they leave the loop -- if they leave the loop -- they are lost.
Looking back, I would have to say my journey to becoming a chain smoker started when I first entered high school -- the first friends I made. I was a big introvert and shy. I went in with the mind set of maybe making a lot of friends -- not necessarily all close friends -- but I also had my mother's voice in my ear telling me that my friends from middle school were going to leave me and that high school is going to be what the rest of my life (like that song by Bowling For Soup).
So I went into high school with this idea, but never really trying to go for it because I was too shy. Enter some weird people (the brony and anime types, aka not me) that wanted to take me under their wings and being stuck in standard classes (with the kids that don't care) instead of honors, and you get a misanthrope (some one who dislikes people in general).
As the weeks passed, I ended up meeting another misanthrope. At the time I thought we were alike. How wrong was I? People annoyed me, but I still liked talking to them -- still liked to feel liked. However, my new misanthrope friend hated people. She talked to five people and made fun of two of them. At the time, I didn't really notice the difference. Now I can see it like a slap to the face.
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Chain Smoking
Ficção AdolescenteThis is the story of how I became a chain smoker -- figuratively. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ It's easy to become a chain smoker. You are one before you even know it. I thought I quit, but I really hadn't. Maybe you can learn from this, too. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I want to say...
