Harsh Realities

Chapter seven: Soul Searching

      Someone pulled the thin mattress I was sleeping on in order to wake me up. I opened my eyes slowly to see Tyler gazing at me with a goofy smile.

"Come on lazy girl, we have work to do" he said before heading to the main door.                                I looked around me trying to find my little sister, but she was now where. In fact, I was the only person left in the house. I did my morning routine which is basically me washing my face changing and doing my hair. I looked at myself in our tiny mirror, which was a piece of broken glass Liv found in the garbage. I have this light tanned skin and sharp features. Everything about my face was sharp, from my  pointy nose to my thin lips. The only thing that I like in my face were my eyes. I had those rounded warm brown eyes that I took from my father and not to forget a set of his perfectly lined dark eyelashes. Nothing about me looked like my mother, but that okay because she wasn't that pretty. Actually I wasn't that pretty not like my sister. My sister had all the beauty from God knows where, she doesn't share any features with my father nor my mother. She had this cute baby face with the same gorgeous eyes as mine, tiny nose and full lips. Her medium skin tone and thick wavy hair makes her nothing but a masterpiece. Even if you don't see her as pretty, I think she is miss charming.

"Hurry up we are late" I heard Tyler's shout and I had the urge to run. I was running forward will trying to wear my short tangles hair in a low bun, and during this process I had to fall right in front of Tyler. He was standing on  a muddy surface which means I got myself covered with mud. He kept laughing on my state while I was trying to remove this mud since it was my only clothes. 

"That is okay I will buy new one for you" my father said that statement with courage.

 I kept staring at him for a while, for sure he isn't drunk since he don't drink in the morning. I stood up and followed the crew silently thinking of what my father said. You may think that whatever he just said was a normal thing but it wasn't. Ever since we became poor my father never offered us a thing not even a drink of water so what made him suggest this now. Maybe he is feeling bad for us or maybe it was time for a change and he is being a better person now. 

I was staring at my surroundings, everyone seems happy and cheerful. Even if we are on the poorest spot in this place everyone is enjoying their life. We were standing in that place were everyone has a mini shop and sells handmade stuff. I didn't leave the house since I was eleven, so you can say that I know nothing in this place except for the dark side.

"This is the local marketplace, everything here is fresh and handmade" Tyler said pointing to one of the shops

"Where is Liv?" Did I mention that I don't care for what so ever he says

"She went to the tailor where they sew nice dresses for good girls" he said with a childish voice

"And why are we here, just take me to my sister already" 

"We made a plan in which me, you, and your father go food shopping and Billy, Zid, and Liv went clothes shopping. They will buy some nice clothes for you and Liv while we will buy and prepare a delicious meal" he gave me a warm smile afterwards.

The market was a warm welcoming place, every person had his own reason to smile, laugh, and be happy. I stood still gazing at the pretty scene as if i was gazing at some wonderful artwork. The blue sky perfectly merging with the puffy clouds, the shades of greens I see everywhere, and the bright sun adding this pretty shine. Suddenly, all the voices around me were silenced, all the figures solidified, and all the colors united to produce the color white as if encouraging me to dive more into my thoughts. Those two minutes or so of inner piece made me realize more things I was neglecting in life. I started questioning myself more about me as a person from day one until today. Why out of all people I was chosen to have this miserable life, who chose it for me, My parents or maybe someone else whom I don't know? Who will guide me to the right path and show me the exit to all my mistakes? Why did my mom forgot about us all of a sudden, did we do mistakes to have all this in return? I had no believes in Gods and stuff, since it never made sense to me how religion works, but I believed in something called Karma. I read about in one of the books Larissa gave me .