Dear Diary.

November 10, 2013

nothing bad has happened.

yesterday, I went to my old towns homecoming, and I cried. they were happy tears but I still felt stupid crying. I'm being replaced by a stupid new girl. there's 2 new girls, and I hate them both, so much. I couldn't talk about him to ny bestfriend. she acted like she knew him better. I've known him longer and know more about him. on Thursday, before I got on the bus, Carl hugged me and said something, but I couldn't hear him. i texted him asking him what he said but he never answered. I don't know what's happening with him. and I want my step dad to tell Ericks dad that they need to come over and shoot some guns. I really want to get to know Erick. I feel like we would get on really well. I wish I had the confidence to talk to him at school without knowing him. and him. I want to text him and just talk. I want him to care about me and worry about me. I shouldn't want it, because I know he's gonna end up hurting me, but I just can't help it. I want to walk to his house and tell him everything about me. i want to know everything about him. I want to know what gives him goosebumps, what takes his breath away, what makes him angry or happy, what his favorite childhood memory is. I want to know the faces he makes when he thinks no one is watching. I don't know if I want to know those things about Carl, but I want to know them about Erick. I want to stop thinking about him and only Erick

-I don't know what I want

-morgan