Long Way Down《H.S》

6] New me

new day...

"You're nothing. Nothing at all. No one will ever love you. you're just like every other girl. He won't see you any different. Because you're not any different. Just a pathetic anger issued 16 year old girl that has a crush on a 22 year old man. He doesn't love you. HE DOESN'T LOVE YOU!"
I wanted to scream so bad and tell the voice that I was different and that he did like me...but I guess that was the problem then huh...he liked me...but I loved him. I tried to speak but my voice wouldn't come out. my mouth was open but nothing was coming out until finally something twitched and I was screaming "NOOOOOOOO! NOOOOOO!" At the top of my lungs.

Reality hit me and I jumped up, drenched in sweat. I looked out my window to see the sun just letting up. I grabbed my phone from off charger and checked the time. It was 5:30 in the morning. I couldn't stop thinking about my dream....how it was so unreal but so real and true in so many ways. I knew what I had to do. I had to make Harry see that im different from the rest of the girls. I don't know what got into me today but I felt...wild and free. I quickly jumped out of bed and grabbed a towel and some clothes and strutted to the bathroom. Once I was in the bathroom I brushed my teeth then turned on the shower to the temperature I liked. I ran out of the bathroom and grabbed my phone and speaker.

Once I was back in the bathroom I turned on my phone's Bluetooth and my phone immediatly connected to my speaker. I turned it up all the way and could feel my walls vibrate. The song 'Starving' by Hailee steinfeld came on and I hoped in the shower. Once I was done I checked the time and it was 7:30 in the morning. I looked in my mirror already not likeing what I was seeing. I look like a piece of shit. I notice how my hair looked boring...it looked all dried out even though I just got out of the shower, also how the red dye looked like someone messed up trying to dye the ends. I notice how my face looks so...boring. I think it's time for a new me.

I go on my phone and search for the nearest tattoo shop. I found one that's called 'Royal Flesh Tattoo and piercings'. I quickly saved it into my phone's GPS. I threw on a red and black flannel with black skinny jeans and black converse. I put some extra shorts in my bag for when i become a new me.I grabbed my wallet and phone and headed down stairs. I checked the time and it was now 8:25. My house looked dark and empty...almost like it was abandoned.

Once I stepped out of my house I immedietly regreted it. The mop of curls was also stepping out of his house. He saw me and smiled I just looked away and trudged towards my dad's old motorcycle. I always had the key on me just in case of emergencies. I got on the motorcycle and put the key in. Immediately the engine roared to life. I looked over at Harry and his mouth almost hit the ground in disbelief, I just sent him a cocky smirk and drove off into the streets.

As I was driving I couldn't help the feeling of euphoria running through my veins. The wind was blowing in my face and I for once felt alive. Quick enough I was at the tattoo place, I parked the motorcycle in front of the store so I could keep my eye on it. I opened the door and immediatly the smell of rubbing alcohol hit my nose. I walked over to the desk and the lady that was working it had fire read hair and a nose piercing and a sleeve of tattoos. I warmly smiled at her and luckily she wasn't that act tough type of people because she smiled back and then said "How may I help you today,miss-"
"Elanore."
"Well, Miss Elanore?"
"I want my hair dyed and a tattoo and uh 2 lip piercings." The lady smirked at me and then said "follow me."

She led me into a back room were there was 2 black leather chairs. "Sit." I obliged."What tattoo would you like today Elanore?"

I showed her a picture of the 2 tattoos I wanted.