Long Way Down《H.S》

15]Sacred feelings

Elanore's pov:

I road through the busy streets of L.A. Passing each red light as I went. Tears were strolling down my face non stop, The wind blew gentle kisses among my cheek. The dark night sky teased and mocked my every move. The stars glistened above me as if they were saying I deserved the emotion I was feeling.

I don't deserve them..do I?

No...No i don't deserve them.

I couldn't hold it in much longer. I pulled my bike over in the middle of traffic and let it out.

I screamed. Screamed louder than I've ever did before. I didn't stop screaming until i felt the burning sensation in my throat and my voice became raspy.

I coughed up a little blood but just spat it out onto the pavement. I usually dont do that and hate it when people did it but at this point i didn't care.

My head pounded and pounded and I felt the world slowly dying out in front of my eyes.

The dried up tear stains turned black due to my running mascara.

My eye lids felt heavy but i didnt allow them to close. I hopped back on my bike and drove. I drove back to the hospital.

*****(At hospital)

I was standing right ouside of his room. I hesitated at first but soon gained enough confidence and entered the room.

There he was, lying in the hospital bed...holding the ring.

As soon as the room door shut behind me his eyes snapped over in my direction.
I awkwardly stood still and i heard him sigh and opened his arms. I wasted no time running into them.

While i was resting in his warm arms, i could feel him groan due to the tenderness of his skin and i immediatly stood up. I examined his arms until i heard him chuckle and i couldn't help but chuckle too.
I then asked the million dollar question.

"Harry... What are we?"
He looked down at the ring he was holding in his left hand and looked deeply in my eyes.

"Honestly...i don't know. I have feelings for you, Elanore. I dont know what they are but i just know that they're strong. And are growing stronger every second im by you. You and i both know we cant happen. We can't be together. Its wrong."
I could feel the tears coming again and i couldn't help but to let out a low sob.

"But if its so wrong...why does it feel so right?" He sighed heavily and shook his head.

"I dont know. But all i do know is that even though we can't be together, i'll always be here for you."

"WAIT. What're you saying?"

"Listen Elanore, this-" he said motioning his arms between us.
"Cant happen."

I nodded my head feeling the tears welling up.

"Well...i gues this is goodbye.."

A tear slid down his cheek and he shook his head.

"I guess it is."

"Ok?"

"Ok."