its hard being 20

Next Chapter Please...

I woke up to hear the birds chirping and the sun shining in my windows. I try to open my eyes but I fell asleep on the couch so my body wasn't ready to wake up to the sun yet. as I sat up I tried to remember why I slept on the couch instead of the bed next to Jake...oh... That's why I didn't go to bed last night. I sat there for a minute as his words swirled around my head "I didn't think you'd be home...some one pregnant...the letter...take this to the house..." Fuck..how did things get so messed up. I grab my phone off the floor and look at the time 6:22 and 1 missed call and 1 voicemail, both from Jake... "hey Mkenna, I just wanted to say I'm sorry about everything. I had the way I wanted to tell you and the way it happened was just not good. if you want to talk about it please call or text me I would really like the chance to explain. I still love you my butterfly" I swear I  could hear my heart shatter like glass all over again. he always called me butterfly when we first met, he said the way I walked around him reminded him of a graceful butterfly going from flower to flower. now I'm like a damn horse with a heavy heart... why did he have to be so sweet after he was such an ass?! but cheating is unforgivable especially since he got her pregnant. I look at the time again 6:47 "shit" I get up and go into the bedroom where I refuse to look at all the empty space around and throw on shorts and a t shirt with converse. I have to be back at the class by 7:30 and I'm running late. I grab my house keys wallet and phone and dart out to the bus stop. As I'm riding the bus I try to give my self a little pep talk. "O.K Mkenna, you have the opportunity of a life time sitting in front of you, fuck Jake you don't need him now you have more time to focus on the task at hand.  As the bus pulles up to the hotel were meeting at I shake myself off and get excited. I run into the shy girl that told Ms. Macintire that we didn't know why we were there, I wave to her and walk over. "hey my names Mkenna, how are you?" "oh I'm good I'm Nicole, do you know where the room is that were meeting at? I cant remember what she said the conference room or the board room." "oh I'm pretty sure its the conference room so lets walk over there and of its not we can try the other room, O.K?" "yea, sure" and she gives me a smile side smile. I can tell were gunna be friends by the end of this.  I'm starting to feel really good about today.