Shaking. I was shaking. Scared. Stressed. I don't know. The pregnancy test lay flat on the counter as I waited to see a plus or a minus. Two minutes.
Why did I have to wait two minutes? You'd think the company that made these stupid things would at least hurry up the process to see if you were fucked or not. It took so damn long. My head began to hurt. I was worried I would pass out but tried to hang on until I got the results. My timer went off on my phone. I started crying. I can't have a baby, not now, not when I'm so young I'm only 23.
I closed my eyes and picked up the stick that determined the rest of my life. I opened my eyes slowly. Oh my god.
I'm pregnant.
I threw the stick down and pissed on another one. I waited two more minutes and I saw the terrifying plus sign. No I can't believe it I won't believe it. I took another one, and I did another and another one until the box was empty. Here I sat on the bathroom floor pregnancy tests laying around me. All had the same haunting answer the first one did.
The next part that I didn't even think of, how the hell am I going to tell Tom? He doesn't want a baby not now especially when he comes home from tour in a couple days . I wasn't gonna tell him until the day after he comes home.
But I had to tell somebody. My best friend. Skye I had to call Skye.
She picked up on the fourth ring. "Rey? Do you know what time it is?" She asked. I at this point was beyond hysterical. "Skye" I cried throwing a pregnancy stick at the wall. It made a crashing sound and something fell.
It kind of sounded like glass. But my eyes had so many tears I couldn't see.
"Reyna? What's wrong honey tell me" she said a sound of urgency in her voice. "Skye you have to promise me you won't tell Tom or Mark or Travis" I cried my back sliding down the bathroom door. "I promise-did you cheat?" She asked. "No!" I yelled. "What happened?" She asked calmly. "Skye.." I sniffed. "I'm pregnant" I finished.
"Holy shit" she said after a long pause. "I'm coming over" and the line went dead. I cried my eyes out on the bathroom floor.
Twenty minutes later I heard a knock on the door. I answered it and Skye threw her arms around me. "You must be terrified" she said. "Are you okay?" She asked. I shook my head and she led me to the couch.
"You must be so scared, but you'll be okay this is a beautiful blessing " she said trying to comfort me. I placed my hand against my stomach. There was a human, a life, a baby growing inside me. I don't know what to do. "How many weeks?" She asked. "I don't know I just took the fucking tests" I said placing my hands in my head.
"Tests you took more than one? How many did you take?" She asked. "Ten" I replied.
"Okay Tom comes home in three days,
Tomorrow morning were taking you to the doctor but in the mean time you need rest and stop crying you're not gonna die" she said as I got up to go to Tom and I's bedroom. Skye laid down next to me. She's my best friend so it wasn't weird.
"Skye" I whispered. "I'm scared" .
"Don't be, you're gonna be an amazing Mommy and Tom is gonna be an amazing Daddy, and Mark and Trav are gonna be great uncles and I'm gonna the best fucking aunt in the world" she laughed. I couldn't help but laugh too. Maybe this wasn't so bad. I was gonna be a mommy.
The next morning Skye did as she told me and forty five minutes after we got up we sat in a parking lot of the Doctors office. "Ready?" She asked.'I nodded and took my seatbelt off. Before we went inside my phone rang. "Hold on Skye its Tom" I said answering.
