Complicated

Fenty Problems

Nicki pov

"We need to talk" I say

"Ok .."

"In order for us to move forward we need to talk about the past"

"I don't want to argue with you again about the decisions I made back then"

"Well we have to talk about it Robyn . I wanna know why you couldn't commit to me"

"Nicki I just wasn't ready for all that at the time . I wanted to be with you but I wasn't ready for marriage. That's all there is to it"

"You didn't think I was worth marrying?"

She rolls her eyes "Did I say that?"

"You don't didn't have to say it . All of your actions showed me that . If you felt I was worth it then you would have done it."

I can tell she's getting frustrated with the conversation. She never liked to take accountability for her mistakes

"You really need to stop assuming shit!"

"Well then tell me the truth Robyn ! I need to know so that I can move on from this . It's the least you could do"

She sighs "I did want to marry you Nic . It didn't happen because I wasn't ready. I hurt you enough by being out all times of the night , cheating and lying .. I didn't want to ask you to be my wife until I knew I could give myself to you completely. I was immature and I was too caught up in the fame. I wasn't good to you as a girlfriend and I wouldn't have been good to you as a wife .. Not at that time of my life"

I guess I could understand her reasoning behind not wanted to be married yet. She wanted to wait until she could fully give her all to me . I thought all this time she just didn't think I was good enough .

"Why didn't you just talk to me about it?"

"Nicki you deserved more than me and what I was giving you . I knew you were tired of waiting and I knew I would eventually lose you . I wanted you to move on and find someone who could give you what I couldn't . I just didn't think it would be my own father"

"Robyn I need to tell you something and it's kinda hard for me to say"

"Oh god .. You're not pregnant are you?"

"What ? No" I say

At least I hope not .. that would be a fucking disaster

"Then what?" She asks

I stare directly into her beautiful eyes . She's just so mesmerizing. I want to tell her how I feel but I don't want it to go to her head or make the situation worse.

"Nevermind" I say

"Nic you know I hate when people do that . Just say it"

"Fine ... I think I'm still in love with you"

She puts on this huge smile and I of course regret telling her .

"Why are you smiling?" I ask

"I'm smiling because I knew you still loved me the first time we saw each other again . The way you yelled at me so passionately. I knew you still wanted me"

I roll my eyes "Whatever Robyn"

"It's too bad we can't make up the way we used to when we argued" she says with a look in her eyes that I know all too well

"Ok that's the end of this conversation" I say as I try to walk away but she grabs my waist and pulls me in close to her

"Remove your hand" I say