7/14/16
you- leaving- makes me realize
you made me hurt far more than you ever made me smile
you blamed me for all of the things out of my control
you constantly lowered my self esteem rather than boosting it
i always knew how to tear you apart, but i never did.
you tried to find new ways to tear me apart every waking moment.
i loved, lusted after, and forgave you.
you only ever used me
i am done telling myself that you just have maturing to do
by all means. go.
~ now who's the stepping stone
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a/n: i can imagine many of you are confused so i'm going to explain a little bit. i first loved this person. quite a lot, i might add. then it was brought to my attention (by said person) that they decided they were definitely leaving and let's just say i didn't take it very well. i was pissed at first, but then when it sunk in i was hurt.
after a while, i became numb to the situation. i developed feelings for this person again. those feelings did not last because, well, i realized that this person did not treat me well in the slightest. i may be blowing it out of proportion, but if someone is constantly putting you down whether they mean it or not, it starts to wear you down. these poems are all written when i was feeling a certain way, i don't feel that extremely about it all now.
so yeah! there was a 7 poem long series. maybe not the best way to start out a poetry book. oh well. thanks for reading!
