where are you,
other worldly creatures
i called for you eons ago
did you not hear me?
did you not see that i let flowers grow-
out of the parts of my rapidly wilting head
that were dysfunctional, damaged, and- quite frankly- dead.
did you not feel for me when i hit the lowest of lows
i sought you in the darkness
i came out empty handed
did you ignore me because of the shame that was branded
on my forehead, for all to see
did you lie when you said it didn't matter?
did you. lie. to me.
where have i gone
i'm starting to believe i was never here
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a/n: this is from march i think idk
still kinda relevant though lmao
have a wonderful week!
