My Angel (Pierre Morhange)

Chapter 1: Fond de L'etang

"Normality is a paved road: it's comfortable to walk, but no flowers grow." - Vincent van Gogh

"Please don't hurt me!" I screamed as my stepdad took another swing at me. I was laying on cold, hardwood floor.

"You are a disgrace to this family and I wish you were never born!" He shouted loudly. He grabbed me by my hair and dragged me to my tiny room. He slamed me into a glass table, that shattered under my weight. The pieces of glass cut me all over my body. He then threw another kick and I whinced and curled into a ball and cried for what seemed hours. After that tiny dots started to dance across my vision as I tried to stand up I saw nothing but darkness.

As I woke up it was dark outside. I was laying on the floor and every bone and muscle in my body felt numb. But the pain in my heart was even greater. It was unbearable. I felt nothing but at the same thing everything. I was feeling so betrayed by my own mother that has married to this fool of a man and she lets him beat me brutally and she just cowardly hides from the conflict in our lives. What kind of mother would ever do that?

I slowly got up and checked my body in my mirror. It was covered in cuts and bruises from all the beatings, but it was also covered by self harm scars. Ever since I was a little girl I was different. I did not fit in and I just was not the perfect piece to this society jigsaw puzzle. I'm always asking myself "Why do these things have to always happen to me? What have I done wrong? What sins did I commit?" I guess I will never know the anwser.

My body was overwhelmed by the pain so I just collapsed onto my bed in the corner of my small yet cozy room. Not long after I fell asleep.

I was awoken next morning by the lound banging on my door. I got out of bed as quickly as possible and opened the door, terrified. I was greeted with my stepdad's face. An evil smile crept to his face and he slowly spoke.
"We have decided that you are no good at home so we are sending you to boarding school so pack your bags because we are leaving in an hour."

I slowly packed my few belongings in a backpack. I was daydreaming when I heard a soft knock on my door.

"Come in." I said quietly. The door opend and there she was. The person who I loved the most but now she meant nothing to me. She was my mother once but not anymore.
"Just leave I do not want to see you and don't come near me again!" I shouted as I slammed the door right in her face.

She looked hurt and for a split second I even felt sorry for her. She looked genuinely scared and emotionally drained, but it was all her fault. She was the one that was supposed to protect me from any harm but she failed miserably. I know we all deserve a second chance, but I could never forgive neither forget what she did to me. She was destroying me mentally while her parter abused me physically right in front of her very own eyes.

The car ride was silent. You could only hear the engine roaring and the quiet sound of a familiar track playing from the car radio. We finally arrived. We stopped in front of a gate with the a white sign that said: Fond de L'Etang.

I got out of the car and straightened my skirt. Surprisingly my mom got out of the car as well and shyly walked towards me extending her arm as if she were to hug me. Despite everything I accepted the hug and buried my head into her beautiful hair. Calmness took over my body and I have felt happy. I felt loved. I felt accepted. Tears snuck out of my eyes and made their way down my pale cheeks. I could hear my mothers chest rising and falling in a steady manner but her heart and her breaths felt heavy just like the tears that were now running down her slim face.

"Pleure pas bébé. Pleure pas." She silently whispered and broke off the hug. She looked me in the eyes and I smiled through all the pain. She wiped her tears and smiled weakly before turning her back to me and entering the car that drove off in full speed, leaving behind nothing but a scared girl.

What is going to happen to me now? I tried to push my anxiety and worries aside and tried to brace for whatever Fond de L'Etang has in store for me.
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Hi there! So this is my first book. Please don't judge and also there would probably be a lot of grammar mistakes since English is my third language but anyways hope you will enjoy reading this book.

Happy reading, EL. xx