Hi, my name is Mark.

Ch 5 The Unknown

More or less the morning went on as it should have. As predicted Mark decided to leave after having breakfast. It wasn't as uncomfortable as it was when my mother had first entered the kitchen 30 minutes ago.

Soon after mom had started making pancakes, Joey entered the room and we all sat in the kitchen. The silence had only truly stopped when Mark started having a conversation with my mother about god knows what, while she was making pancakes for Joey. And I decided to look through my phone to 'unblock' Mark's number or in this case see if my dad was right. Low and behold... It was so, Marks number was nowhere to be found on my phone. Lawrance, that dickhole!  Mark could almost eminently sense the annoyance as if he watched  it enter my brain, he had walked up behind me and gave me a hug.

"Mark?" I mumble his arms still around my shoulders.
"hmm?"
"Could you put your name and number on my phone... So it seems someone had deleted it..." I hold out my phone to him.

"I suppose that why when I texted you last night the provider said the message been blocked." I can feel my stomach drop. He takes the phone out of my hand. Quickly entering the number. He hands it back within moments. "You probably still need to unblock it. I'll add you on facebook in a moment." He smile's

"I'm really sorry..." I play with the spoon from the coffee in front of me. "I'm surprised you aren't mad at me.." He pulls up a seat next to me, holding my free hand.

"I will admit. I was upset in the beginning. When I decided to come back to social media and just people in general. When I was back and you weren't there like you had always promised." The sadness lingers in his voice.

" But.. When I met your dad a few months ago..." I could hear my father take a sharp intake of breath, but my eye's we're locked on Mark. "I will admit.. I was a bit barbaric with my entrance to his office.." He looks to the floor instead of our hands.

"He burst through the door, unannounced and very loudly proclaiming his anger towards you. and you not answering him and leaving him alone and sad." Joey interrupted from stuffing his face with pancakes at the breakfast bar. Dad just buries his face into the paper and Mom pays no attention to this. Mark sighs.

"Thank you, Joey.." he clears his throat "Anyway. As your brother just said. and your father and I... yelled at one another. In the end, I left his office knowing even less than when I had walked in. And I realized... It wasn't your fault... It was mine. I disappeared... If we were still talking... Things might have gone differently for us." I feel so awkward. So unsure, and left in the dark. And I'm sure he does too. Without realizing it I fly into his arms.

I feel so bad, I just want to crawl into his arms in a warm bed and forget the last 2 years and only remember my time with him.... Only him.

The next 2 hours was just us in my room with Bo laying on the bed and us just talking and listing to each other's  stories...

My parents were busy getting ready for the New years party. Even if Christmas eve was tonight...  They plan ahead. We never really did anything on Christmas eve, just the 5 of us. Chinese takeout, bad cable movies playing and hanging around. But the New years party? That was our whole ordeal. A few of the neighbors come, some of my aunt's and uncle's come. Family friends. It's really the only holiday my family was known for. 

-1:30 pm-

Mark looked at the clock and sighed, standing up. I looked up at him. "You need to leave?" he nods. Looking tired as ever. "Sorry, we didn't sleep much." he shrugs while putting on his shoes

"Saying up with you... It makes me remember why I fell for you in the first place" He smiles bending over and pushing hair behind my ear. His face came closer and I was the one who closed the  space, it was a short kiss. But... It made me feel loved.

Kinda wish I could pull him down and kiss him until I was breathless. But no. It's Christmas eve and he has family to go to.

"Help me up?" I ask holding my hand out as soon as he stands up straight again. He smiles and pulls me up, into his arms. "Thanks." I nuzzle my face into his chest. He kisses the top of my head. 

"So shall I leave through the window like I came in or can I use the door this time?" He jokes

"Door sounds good." We walk down the stairs together. Bo again at our heels. I open the door and the cold air attacks our faces. Mark shivers.

"Here take a beanie." I grab my favorite red one that was lying on top of the table by the front door. He once again engulfs me in a hug. whispering "Meet me at the park at twelve. Okay?" I nod

"Only for you Mark." I smile kissing his cheek.

With a wave and a hug, we say our goodbyes

//~Maybe I'm too in love with you to see that I'm falling apart at the seams~\\

I'm so sorry mark.. I feel tears roll down my cheeks while looking at him walk off into the snow outside.
Y/n pull yourself together. Things won't get better if you cry. Yeh? Alright. Time to do nothing and write..
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Half an hour I've been staring at the same page on my laptop, no more than 100 words about the sky, hopeless.
/Buzz buzz/
My phone rested on the kitchen table starts to buzz, text message?

' Mark: I've been think....'
oh? I unlock my phone and open the message.
'I've been thinking about you since I got home, I'm supposed to be editing and the only thing on my mind is your smile. Ugh this is really mushy and gross I know. I just miss you I guess. 12 pm tonight right?'
I look at the message for a good two minuets, my fingers twirl around hanging above the screen. I slowly begin to type.
'You're such a goofball, and honestly I miss you too. 12 pm? Yeah the park right?'
After pressing send no less than a minute later I see a message.
'Yeah at the park, I never guessed I'd miss you this much. 😳'

'Shall we get back to our work? I miss you too, this isn't one sided you know haha. I'll see you tonight. ❤️❄️ dress warm!' I put my phone down again.
/buzz buzz/
'Mark: ❤️'
My heart flutters, he makes me nervous.