I'm Not Everything You Wanted Me To Be (Ambrollins Fanfiction)

Do you feel the shame inside you? - Part 7

Cliffhanger chapter... Sorry! Thanks for reading and enjoy!

Seth was disorientated the next morning. Somehow he had made it up into bed last night, but he doesn't remember waking up. The last thing he could remember was passing out downstairs.

Jason must have carried him up to bed. The thought of it made Seth smile. Sure, Jason had some anger issues but Seth knew that he still loved him. There was a soft spot deep down.

Seth lifted himself up, off of the bed and felt an aching pain all over his body. This was by far one of the worst beatings he had received over the past year. He made his way into the bathroom and was shocked at the sight of his reflection in the mirror.

He had a black eye and a bruise at the top of his head, along the hairline. He had to be at work in less than an hour, there was no way he could cover this up. He had no make up to slather on his face and a hoodie wouldn't do much help, especially when he put on his ring gear.

Seth let out a long sigh and decided to wear a hoodie anyway. He also put on a really dark pair of sunglasses. It was the hottest day of the year, so he could get away with the glasses at least.

Jason wasn't home, so it was easy for Seth to leave the house. He had a small smile on his face as he thought about Jason carrying him to bed last night.

Seth kept his head down and faced the ground as much as he could, once he got to work. He decided to get changed in the men's bathroom instead of the locker room, because he didn't want anyone seeing his newest cuts from the other night.

Once he was in his ring gear, he re-applied his hoodie and sunglasses. Hopefully, he wouldn't attract people's attention.

The first person Seth saw, as he was walking towards the gorilla position, was Dean. The older man instantly grabbed Seth's arm and pulled him into an empty corridor. 

"You didn't tell me you had a boyfriend." Dean smirked, trying to play the role of a happy best friend, even though he was heartbroken on the inside.

"Um, I, yeah." Seth sighed. "Just didn't come up in conversation I guess." Dean gave Seth a confused look before reaching his hand out to Seth's face and taking off his sunglasses.

"Dude, why are you wearing sunglasses ins-" Dean paused, causing Seth to look down at the ground. "Where'd that black eye come from? You didn't have it when I last saw you." Dean was slightly shocked.

Seth simply shrugged, not wanting to carry on the conversation, but Dean continued to ask questions.

"Did he do this to you? Your boyfriend?" Dean asked, talking quietly.

"What? No, why would you think that?" Seth panicked but tried to keep a confident front.

"Seth, you can tell me anything. You know that right?" Dean sounded concerned.

"Yes I know, but there's nothing to tell you. Nothing like that happened, he would never hurt me. I was just a bit out of it yesterday after being in the hospital and I forgot that the overhead cupboard was open and when I turned around, I walked straight into it and caught my eye on the corner." Seth fake laughed, trying to lighten the mood.

Dean wasn't buying it at all. He could tell that Seth was lying. He always did an awkward laugh whenever he lied.

"Anyway, my match is next so I gotta go." Seth smiled, quickly walking away before Dean could even process that he was gone.

Dean spent the rest of the night thinking about Seth and his boyfriend. Everything that Seth had said, sounded a bit off, and it was easy to tell that his boyfriend wasn't exactly Mr Nice Guy. He had a rude way of approaching people.

Dean didn't sleep much that night. The worry for his friend consumed him.

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The next morning, Dean went to visit Seth's house once again but something didn't seem right. It was almost noon, but all of the curtains were shut. Seth's car was in the drive, so he was most likely in the house.

From Dean's knowledge of Seth throughout the past years, Seth loved daylight and he hates when people keep their curtains closed during the day.

Dean was hesitant to walk up to the door. Maybe Seth and his boyfriend were having some 'alone' time. It would explain why the curtains were still closed. Dean would not want to interrupt that.

Something similar had happened a few years before, a couple of months after the Shield's debut. Dean and Seth were sharing a hotel room and Dean, returning late after a show, didn't even think twice about the 'Do not disturb' sign on the door. What he saw was disturbing, but they laughed about it in the end.

Dean took a step closer to Seth's front door. He heard a few muffled noises coming from the living room, which was where the front door was placed. 

Dean thought about knocking and raised his hand, but before his fist could touch the door, he heard a loud thud and a scream of pain. Dean knew that scream. It was Seth.

Panic arose quickly in Dean and he opened the, thankfully unlocked, door and ran into the house. The sight that he saw made him feel physically sick.

Seth was being held down against the floor, with Jason on his back, pulling at his hair with one hand and holding his throat tightly with the other.

Seth was screaming and crying in agony, but the struggle to breathe was becoming stronger. Dean froze, not knowing what to do, but he was quick to make his final decision.