INVISIBLE// CTH

Chapter Three

*****TRIGGER WARNING*****

On the way to Michael's house me and Calum just listened to Blink- 182 and All Time Low and just talked to each other the whole way. When we got there all of his friends that were in his band were already there. First he introduced me to the boys and they seemed really nice.

"Hey guys!! I want you to meet Lily." Calum said introducing me to them.

"Hi." I managed to say to the boys.

"Hi my names Ashton!" a boy with blonde hair in a bandana called out to me.

"Hey!! I'm Michael." A boy with red hair said to me.

"And I'm Luke!" A boy with his blonde hair in a quiff yelled at me lastly.

I got really overwhelmed and just decided to stay quiet.

"Ok let's go downstairs and practice." Said Calum.

So I followed them down the stairs. This was actually a pretty small house. When we got downstairs I saw drums set up and three guitars and three microphones. I sat on the couch infront of the stageish thing. After about 1 hour they were finally done. They are actually really good. I think that they can get really far with this band if they just take it more seriously.

"Okay, we are finally done. I think we should get you home lily. We have school tomorrow." Calum said.

"Yeah." I just nodded my head and walked out with him.

The whole ride home my mind was killing me. I was thinking about how his friends probably thought that I was the ugliest girl on the planet. Also they probably thought that I was fat and not perfect like all other girls. They probably thought I was disguising and too quiet. Before I could think anymore we pulled up to my house and he got out and opened my door.

"Hey, I'm glad that you came to hangout with me and the boys I think they really liked you!" He said.

"Haha, I doubt that." I meant to say that in my head but I said it out loud.

"Why wouldn't they like you? Your amazing!"

"I don't know. I have to go. Thanks for the ride though! Bye, I'll see ya tomorrow." I said and he gave me a hug then I rushed into my house.

My thoughts where getting the best of me... I was breaking down and I couldn't help it because all these voices in my head were killing me slowly. I rushed to my room and locked my door so my mom wouldn't come in. I ran to my bathroom and stood looking in the mirror crying with makeup running down my face and I didn't know what to do except my escape from this living hell which was pain. I pulled out my bathroom drawer where my blades were and I couldn't help it but I started drawing on my skin with the blades. It feels so good it is just a way for me to punish me for not being perfect and I just feel numb when I cut myself because I get all of my anger out and I feel better after but it's never for longer than a day...

After I took a hot shower and my skin stung but it was the best feeling in the world to me. I got out and dried myself off and then threw some pjs on and got in bed. I checked my phone and I got a text from Calum.

From: Cal
Hey! You didn't really talk today at practice. Are you okay?"

To: Cal
Yeah. I'm fine.
Only if he knew that I was dying inside.

From: Cal
Okay just making sure. Well I'm gonna go to sleep! I'll see you tomorrow! Goodnight:)

To: Cal
Goodnight.

I tried to go to sleep after that but I stayed up until 4 and finally fell asleep.