still screaming.
josh finds himself on his knees, pleading, repeatedly asking: "why it's got to be like this?"
finally, tyler stopped.
silence.
"tyler?"
josh cautiously stands up.
he just..
sat there.
silent.
all tyler could hear was faint mumbling, but he really couldn't make anything out of it.
josh kept shaking tyler, but he wouldnt budge.
"tyler, please."
he was gone.
tyler was taken to the hospital by josh. the doctors explained that there was nothing they could do.
. .
three weeks.
tyler was silent for three weeks.
no movement,
no talking,
he didnt even eat.
finally, he spoke.
"i'm a goner."
he just started laughing hysterically.
while laughing, he kept saying "im a goner" over and over.
he had lost his mind.
josh visited tyler.
he walked into the room, surprised to see tyler standing at the window, staring at the sky.
"t-tyler?"
tyler slowly turned, and took his hands out of his pockets.
he took a step towards josh,
but josh stepped back.
for those three weeks, tyler seemed like a lunatic. josh wasnt sure what tyler's intentions were anymore.
he was scared of him.
every time tyler took a step forward, josh would take a step back, until his back was up against the wall.
tyler took another step forward.
they were then face to face.
"p-please back-"
josh was interrupted by tyler hugging him.
just hugging him, and never letting go.
josh hugged back, because
it just felt right.
like it belonged.
. .
tyler was awfully silent throughout that week, but he was still somewhat "normal"
after many therapy sessions,
(which he never really spoke in)
he was able to go home.
tyler and josh sat beneath the burnt, black treehouse, eating tacobell.
"b. is the voice in my head."
tyler softly said.
josh turned to him.
"why does b. want you dead?"
"i dont know."
tyler sighed.
"b. is slowly taking control of my body"
tyler fought back tears.
josh grabbed his hand and held it,
tight.
"well, i wont let that happened"
he smiled.
tyler felt secure around josh.
although he wasn't used to friends, he knew josh was a close one.
. .
sunday morning was quiet.
josh didn't let tyler stay alone on sundays.
he slept right next to him every sunday.
tyler was having nightmares.
he kept mumbling, but josh couldn't make out the words.
when tyler woke up, josh was in the kitchen downstairs.
tyler smiled as the scent of pancakes trailed through his nose.
"mom wh-"
tyler saw josh smiling while sliding the pancakes onto a plate.
"goodmorning"
he scrunched up his nose as he smiled brightly.
tyler licked his lips as he prepared to dig into the pancakes covered in warm syrup.
"thanks."
he dug in.
. .
tyler and josh spent the whole day playing video games.
"i beat your ass"
tyler giggled.
"only because i kept getting that damn spiney shell!"
josh spat.
the two giggled and then just sat there for a few seconds, saying nothing.
but they just stared at each other.
"uh- i better get going.."
josh trailed off.
"o-okay."
tyler looked down.
josh stood up and brushed himself off.
"bye tyler"
he waved and smiled.
tyler gave a quick wave back.
"you scared him off."
"no i didnt!"
tyler yelled.
he just began yanking at his own hair, ripping pieces out, crying.
tyler couldn't stand the voiced in his head.
"youre worthless"
"i know."
tyler sobbed.
"hey ty, i forgot my jack-"
he walked in on tyler curled up in a ball, crying and punching his own head.
he quickly kneeled down to him and held his fists back.
"tyler, stop."
he looked into tyler's dark brown eyes.
tyler slowly closed the gap between them by pressing his lips against josh's.
it caught him off guard, so he released.
"tyl-"
"im so sorry."
tyler had wide eyes, realizing what he had just done.
"im sorry, im sorry, im sorry."
he cried.
"tyler its oka-"
"get out!"
tyler spat, while tears poured down his cheeks.
josh slowly stood up and backed away.
"get out get out get out!"
tyler began throwing things at him, so he finally left.
and with that, josh just sat in his car, completely confused.
. .
