A Message To All Who....

Dear bullies

Dear bullies,

Awh, You poor poor thing.. You think calling me an ''attention whore'' is gonna boost your self esteem? You really think it's gonna make you feel better? You think it's gonna make you look cute/nice/attractive etc. Well news flash, Honey. I knew you never liked me after you got your friends :'). You were just too stupid to admit it. I was the first person you ever talked to. I was the first person who cares/cared. And I'm STILL the only one who cares, But whatever xo. Trade me in for a bunch of low-life bullies. See if I care, But one day, When you fuck up & make an accident and something gets shown & everyone's calling you fake and making you feel like the crappiest person to walk the earth, Like a sack of garbage waiting to be processed. Worthless, Useless, Just another nothing. Being blamed for stuff you didn't do, & everyone believing it, Being hurt, Being afraid, Being held-back to keep the little friends you have, Though you know they'll be gone soon enough. Being tired, Tired of drama, Tired of the same exact thing every-day, Tired of being ''fine'' Tired of being hurt, Betrayed, Used, Lied to. Being tired of not being you. Then oh it gets much MUCH better, You get suicidal thoughts & try to tell people, But all they tell you to do is to "stop". To feel better? Or when they tell you to sleep more because you could die. Or eat more, So you're healthier. To just be happier. But it just isn't that easy, It's not easy to admit you're hurting & it's not easy to get the courage to stand up for yourself at this point. But of-course, That's never the ending. When you tell the ONE person you THOUGHT you could trust with your life. They let you down and call you various names(whore, slut, cunt, bitch, asshole, etc.), Which, Of-course makes nothing better on you. You'll slowly break down, Get more suicidal, Get serious thoughts, Cry yourself to sleep & wake up thinking that maybe it would be the day for all of this to just stop. All the mean words. & The mean actions. Just that all of those mean, Cruel people will finally leave you alone & your chance of happiness is a 2O%. But then, That one certain person who told you everything would be okay if you stayed with them and trusted them, Just leaves you. Then you find yourself to have nothing. You think of quitting, But know you can't. You think of dying, But don't have the guts to. You think to yourself. ''Why ME ? Why not someone else ? Why me ..'' Then you realize no-one deserves it. You want to help, You change your whole self image just to impress them, Or not exactly to impress, But to just show them you can! You give all your power, Wisdom, Might and strength into this. But then it still doesn't stop. You find yourself getting more deeper into death. You wonder "Am I still alive ?". Or "Is this really happening ?" But no, All of this can't possibly be enough. There's always more. Just around the corner. Waiting. Just waiting. Waiting for you to walk right into it, & You think maybe getting a couple new friends would help, But no. They leave too. You discover that everyone slowly leaves you as you try to gain more. You sometimes think "Is life even worth it ?" But no-one knows what's really going on. And they could care less, Because they're all just too cool to think for a minute. The ones that believed in you, Just either quit or left you & started being mean and hurtful. WHEN YOU DIDN'T DO ANYTHING? All you wanna do is cry. You just want to be happy, You want someone to tell you everything will be okay with them, They'll stand by you, And help you. That they'll love you for who you are, Not what you look like, Or what genre of "Music" you listen to. But you, Just that one person. Who truly and utterly just loves you.. For you. I know, Sounds crazy right ? All you want is that fairy-tale ending. You've seen them in movies, Read them in books. But why can't you just snap your fingers and change? Be a different person? Just make all the mean go away for now and forever? Oh right. You're just a powerless, Fake, Stupid, Cunt, Hoe, Whore, Slut, Bitch, Asshole, & many, MANY more. Sorry if I busted your little ego as ''popular''. I hope you're happy. 'Cause I'm not.

I apologize for my ''bitchy'' attitude, by the way..um...