Sent to me by a old friend

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When I was in 5th grade, my teacher physically, mentally and sexually abused me.. I couldn't tell anyone. He was ex military and I was terrified of him. I was bullied by everyone there, and some kids heard the things he said to me, so they began to say worse things. I tried to get out of school, I got in trouble till my school said I needed to stay home. Between the summer of my 5 & 6 grade year, I started cutting,. School got and more bullying everyday, every class. I got in a fight and they told my parents again I needed to stay home. 7th grade, I started cutting a lot, I stayed to ,myself even tho people still said stuff. I finally got a friend, Lily. I loved her, with my whole heart. She had a rough life.. one day, she saw my cuts, and asked me about it, I told her... that night.. April 6, 2011 my best friend 13 killed her self... she cut and overdosed I will never get over it. Before this I started getting into drugs. Pills, weed, and I tried heroin. I started drinking. She tried to help me. About a month after this, I had been talking to a guy who was 19, we were friend, or so I thought. One night I snuck out. And went to a party with him, I got drunk and high, but he didn't,.. he raped me. I was scared, I didn't let any guy hug Mr, or anything. I was quite and cut... 8th grade consisted of cutting and pills. My mom made me. Start going to a counselor.. never told her anything. And never will. 9th grade... I cut everyday.. deeper and deeper. I only did online classes and didn't talk to anyone. I realized i was bisexual, and.. I met a girl, she was amazing. We talked and we realized we'd been through a lot of the same stuff. Then.. she ,moved. It hurt, this year I'm 16 a sophomore and bullied still daily and over online too. One month ago on October 3, 2013 I tried to kill myself. I overdosed, ended up in the Er and later transferred to a mental hospital I stayed there for a week and a half.. I self harmed while I was there, I haven't for 25 days today...I have almost, its supper hard... but, I'm getting there.I'm also Bulimic and struggle with that.

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