Would You Live For Me

Chapter 27

All three girl made sure to make me feel safe. Pamela walked to one of the rooms with me by her side and told me I could sleep in there for a while. The room had plants all over and a smell so beautiful that I closed my eyes and inhaled deeply. Her and I sat on the bed and she smiled weakly at me. "Joker has known me for a long time. We met through Harley and very rarely does he come to me for help." Both of us were looking at the plants as she spoke to me and used her fingers to control them. "When I say that I mean it. There was a lot said to you when you couldn't hear and a side of Joker that no one has ever seen. He kept telling you that he loved you over and over again. We were all scared he was going to lose you." Was he really that much of a mess?

Pamela stood up and walked out of the door. After she left, I stood up and walked around the decently sized room. The plants swayed when I walked in front of them. Some were really big and some were small. The door was knocked on and someone slowly entered. Harley stood before me and I smiled to her.

"Are you feeling better now that you've had a shower and stuff?" I nodded and coughed a little bit. A phone in her hand buzzed and she texted the person back. "Sorry. That was my boyfriend. His name is Floyd and he's the best." It was sweet to see that she was in love with someone and was happy. I opened my mouth to speak up but all that would come out was a gentle whisper. "I'm happy for you." Red came to her cheeks as she blushed and then hugged me.

"I think we should be friends." I nodded in agreement as she left and when she did, I sighed. This would be the first time that I was actually alone since what happened. Every time I closed my eyes, I would see the mask. I heard my screams and the memory of pain going through my head. My legs became weak and I went to the bed. The plants followed me and I thought it was both creepy and astonishing. The plants hovered over me as if they were a blanket and I curled up in a ball.

What would've happened if I died? Would Joker go even more mad or would he stay away? I've never been so glad for someone's death and I owe my life to Selina for killing the man. My mind was racing as I was thinking about his voice and everything he told me. I should've died yesterday. He wanted me to die and I didn't. This should make me feel good. Why do I feel like shit?

The plants tightened around me and I started feeling more comforted as my eyes began to shut.

When I woke up, I heard giggling. My eyes opened slowly as I saw the girls by the bed. Pamela started making her plants move out of the way and I got cold.

"They haven't done that to anyone but Pamela." Selina laughed out. Pamela smiled at her plants and I did too. It was nice to know that they liked me. Though, it's weird to think that plants had feeling like that in the first place.

The girls moved out of the way when they saw Joker so he can come in. My eyes went wide and my smile grew big. When he looked at me, his face went from stone and cold hearted to warm and loving. He walked over to me and kissed my head. "Hello, Maya. I've found a condo and we have most of our stuff moved in." Suddenly, his face fell into sadness. The girls got concerned because they didn't know what was going on. "What's wrong J?" My voice was hoarse. He motioned for the girls to step out and they did so with caution. The plants became still and my breathing became fast.

"I looked everywhere, I really did. Thor is no where to be found." My heart sunk. That was my loyal companion. He was my best friend and the one who would stay out with me in the middle of the night. I turned around and laid down on the bed. Everything in my life was plummeting down a staircase of ominous desolation. I hated everything right now and most of all, I hated myself. There wasn't a way to stop myself from thinking about what happened and that's all I wanted to do. I just wanted to be better and happy again.

Joker laid down and held onto me, being the big spoon. We tangled our legs together and I silently cried. It was nice to know I didn't have to hold anything back around him. He let me cry and he let me have my emotions not rest on my shoulders. Instead of making me bottle it up, he sat quietly and comforted me with his presence. That's all I needed.

I'm lucky to have him. We have been through so much. I'd noticed how he had fallen asleep behind me and his grip on me loosened just a tad. When he slept, he almost looked angry and it made me laugh.

However, I couldn't stop thinking about the bad that we have been through. This is was it was like to love the Joker and it was becoming a threat to my life.

  "Would you... would you live for me?"

I thought about his words. My life was put out on the line every single day and my job was hard. The Joker didn't want me to be in his life just to die but to live had its cons. Was it supposed to be this hard to love? Am I supposed to be afraid of people who don't like him? Now I knew what it was like to be in love and I also knew the hard facts about being in love with him. This man has provided for me and loved me and protected me and I will never stop thanking him for doing that.

What if one day he isn't there to protect me. All it took was him to be upstairs and for me to be downstairs when I was attacked. Did I really want to leave his side at all? I got closer to him and felt like I needed to be glued to him. The only reason I live everyday is because of this man. However, this man is also the reason why I have to be so careful. I'm a strong women. I am a 29 year old women who can beat some ass and has killed more than enough people to know a hint of death. I've been through enough in my lifetime to share with a couple of people.

This life was hard, I knew that. After what happened last night... I just didn't know if I could handle it anymore. My mind was everywhere and all I could do was kiss Jokers hand and whisper an 'I love you' before letting myself sleep.