Chaos|JiCheol

Chaos 29[s]

Jihoon's

"Relax Jihoon ok?" Dahan dahan nalang akong napatango.. I held into the bed sheets tighter. "Close your eyes."

Sinunod ko naman ito..

"Now what do you see?"

I wanted to speak.. I wanted to scream.. Memories kept flashing back like a hurricane..

Hard pouring rain...

Crashed and almost crumpled car..

Ambulance and people everywhere..

Me—semi concious inside the upside down car.. With a person i don't know who..

And Blood... Blood everywhere..

Im terrified.. I remember this scene.. The same scene.. The same fvcking scene.

"Jihoon-ah! Jihoon-Ah wake up!" My eyes flew open.. Tears were streaming down..

I opened my mouth to say something.. But still— no sound can be heard..

Nagsimula na kong manginig.. My palms are sweating so badly..

"Calm down Jihoon..." Pagpapakalma sakin ni Doc. Haneul.. Inabutan nya ko ng tubig..

Matapos ang ilang minuto ay kumalma narin ako... Tinignan ko si Doc at tumango. Signalling her to continue are session.

"Now Jihoon.. Im going to show you some pictures.. Pictures of Persons from your past..This may slighty help you recover from your selective amnesia, Pero once na may maalala ka, You may have a panic attack or an episode.. Kaya mo ba?" Muli akong tumango. I need to do this. I have to.

Ipinakita nya sakin ang isang picture.. It was me and a green haired boy.. Kumunot ang noo ko.. We look alike.. How can that happen? Ang sabi sakin nila tita ay wala daw akong kapatid.. Who is this guy?

"Do you remember him Jihoon?" Umiling lamang ako.. Ipinakita naman nya ang sunod na picture.

It was me again, but this time i was around 14 years old— yung kanina kasi 15 or 16 years old ako— and there's two girls standing beside me. One with a smirk, and one with an innocent smile. The two girls look like twins. And they also look like me.

Again. Who are they? I looked up to Doc. Haneul— who was looking at me with hopeful eyes— and slowly shook my head. Huminga muna sya ng malalim bago ipakita ang pangatlong litrato..

It was me, the green haired boy earlier and 7 more boys.. I furrowed my brows in confusion before squinting my eyes on one side of the picture.. A boy with the same denim jacket as mine..

Nakaakbay sya sakin but the weird thing is, Natatakpan ng burarang tinta ng ballpen ang mukha nya..

Inilapag ni Doc. Haneul ang mga picture sa harap ko..

"I know this isn't part of the plan nor therapy but sorry cupid. I can't take it anymore." Kumunot ang noo ko sa sinabi nya.

Napapikit nalamang ako ng may nakakasilaw na  ilaw ang pumalibot kay Doc. Haneul. As soon as i open my eyes, She's no longer there instead nakita ko si Chaneul sa harap ko.

"Hi Lee Jihoon. It's me, Anael. Your guardian angel."

•HoonBawm 😂😂