Behind The Anger - A Camp Camp Fanfiction

Chapter 2 - Going Swimming

Chapter 2 - Going Swimming

Max's POV                                     
I ran over to him to hit him but then I missed my punch and I go straight into the lake. I felt the water around me and my clothes start to float around and I heard the splash turn quieter. I felt my throat burn up like crazy and all the air leave my lungs. My eyes were stinging but I looked around saw blue around but my vision was getting darker... I tried to get to surface but I couldn't swim. I've never been in water before but I knew you could die.

That's when it hit me. I could finally die and nobody could blame themselves for what I've wanted along... I close my eyes and let myself float to the bottom of the lake, accepting and begging for death with open arms... I suddenly feel a great rush of air fill my lungs and I start to cough all the water out. The sun's light was blinding but I got used to it and I looked around. David was there, panting and wet. He had saved me.

Everyone else was surrounding me, looking worried but I didn't give a damn. Anger started to fill me and I started to cry. My clothes were damp and were sticking to me, my hair was also damp and kept on getting in my face. My body was sour and my throat hurt like hell but I could still croak out.

"G-Goddammit D-David..." I weakly say, glaring him with tearful eyes,"Why couldn't you just let me d-die...?"

"I could never let you die Max!" David declares, confused at what I meant, "Why would you say such a thing...?"

"You wouldn't understand... You're too h-happy to get it..." I say sadly and try to stand up but ended up falling back down on my knees.

"Max! Are you alright?!" I hear Nikki scream as she pushed through the crowd and knelt near me.

"Yeah... I just need to rest..." I say weakly and lay on the grass, my eyes were getting heavier and heavier.

I couldn't sleep though. From the uncomfortable feeling of my clothes sticking to me or from the pain in my whole body, I just couldn't sleep. They were going to ask questions and I know that I don't want to answer them... I'm pretty sure that just faking a smile is way easy than explaining why I am sad. Sometimes you got to just pretend everything is okay... Even if it's not...

"Max...?Did you try to kill yourself...?" David says, finally getting it, I see Nikki's eyes widen.

"Max?! Is this true?" Nikki asks.

"What's going on...?" Neil says,who had finally fought through the crowd around me, making me even more nervous.

"I think Max tried to kill himself..." Somebody says but I didn't look, I sigh and fake the biggest smile I could muster...

"Guys,trust me, I just can't swim...I'm Fine."

-Time skip-

It has been days since the disaster and they still believe me. It was breakfast and I'm staring at my plate of food while the other two talk about whatever. David just wouldn't leave me alone for days, he still has his doubts... Speaking of David, Where is he? I look around the room to see him taking a phone call, he kind of looks confused.But then he starts to walk over to me. I wonder what he wants but then when he gets close enough to me, he says this:

"It's for you, I think it's your parents!" He says cheerfully and passes me the phone, all the color from my face disappears.

"W-Was it a m-male or a women's voice...?" I say, hoping for my mom's voice, not his...

"It was a male, why?" He says confused and I panic.

OH NO OH NO OH GOD! I panic and thousands of thoughts go through my head but on the outside I look sort of calm. I was still tremble but I try to hide it and I bring the phone to my ear. What did he want...? I stand up from the table and walk a bit away, turning my back to them,hoping that maybe they can't hear his shouts...

"H-Hello...?"I weakly say.

"YOU USELESS PIECE OF SHIT! YOU ARE COMING HOME RIGHT NOW AND YOU ARE GOING TO MAKE YOUR SELF USELESS AROUND HERE!" he shouts and I quickly have to take the phone away from my ear to stop myself begin deaf, the voice was killing me, when I thought it was safe I spoke.

"S-Sorry d-dad... I'll come home as soon as I can..." I say, sadly, I didn't want to leave, even when I escaped I didn't want to go.

"Thank goodness! And you know about that stupid slut you call a mother?" He shouts and angry boils up inside of me but I knew well enough to not lash out to him.

"Y-Yeah?" I say a bit irritated but tried to hide it with my fear. Nobody ever talks about my mother like that.

"She's in hospitable, It turns out she has this stupid illness called "Cancer"Or something, Not like I give a damn about that bitch!" he says and I can't take the anger in me and I snap.

"DON'T YOU DARE TALK SHIT ABOUT MY MOTHER! I AM SICK AND TIRED OF YOU AND MY MOTHER CAN DIE BUT TOO FUCKING SELFISH TO EVEN CARE! I HATE YOU AND I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY GOD LET'S YOU LIVE!" I shout and end the call,then I feel tears on my cheeks, I turn around to see anyone looking at me.

"Max?What was that all about...?" David says but I don't say anything, I just shove the phone in his hands and run.

I don't know where was I going but I knew I couldn't go back. They had heard every word of that call and they were going to ask questions and I don't want them to know that I'm weak. I can't go home or he will kill me for snapping at me. But my mother... I can't believe it. I haven't seen my mother in years but I wished that one day she would just come home one day and save me... But now she can't because she has cancer.

She is going to die now and I can barely remember her face! I run into the forest and cry... I was so weak for crying but I couldn't help it. When I got deep enough in the forest so nobody could hear me, I hide behind a tree and crawled into a ball. I sobbed until my eyes sting, I need to... I took out my pocket knife and rolled up my sleeves. Cuts. There was so many old cuts there and I hated myself because of it. It helped somehow though...

I dragged the sharp part of the knife across my wrist making it bleed but I didn't care. It made me feel better. I went to cut my other wrist but I got it stuck and I started to bleed heavily. Crap! I started to panic. I tried to take the knife out of my skin but when I did it only made it worse. My vision was starting darker and darker... I'm so sorry... I fall the ground and drop the bloody knife. I was going to die here... I was never going to see my friends ever again...Please... Mom help...

Darkness was all I saw. I was dead, wasn't I...? This was my end... I was going to die in the middle of nowhere...

"Max! Come on stay with me buddy!"