Midnight (C.SC)

sadness

It hadn't gone away.
The overwhelming self hatred won't go away, the sadness wouldn't dissipate.
I hoped it would go away with Seungcheol's help but no matter how hard he tried it wouldn't work.
I apologize to him, for being so sad.
He told me not to worry,
he still loves me and always will,
no matter what.
I love him.
I don't ever want to lose him, or cause him any sadness, but I worry that I will do something to myself and cause him pain.
I told him that it's near inevitable at this point, my death that is.
Oh how I will miss his kisses in the grave.