My Life With Payne

Our Dirty Little Secret

"Hello everyone we're... back." Harry paused mid-sentence when him and Louis walked in on Niall and I.  "Hi guys." I pulled away form Niall fast, still wanting more.  "What's going on here?" Louis' wrist was wrapped in bandages.  "How's your wrist Lou?" I asked, avoiding his question.  "Answer my question Char." Louis wanted an answer.  "What you saw is what we did, happy now?" I got up and walked into the kitchen.  I heard them talking out in the living room, but I didn't attempt to hear the words.  Did I seriously just kiss him?  How ould I let this happen?  Maddy and liam can't find out, I'd be dea.  I already am on the inside.  Does that count as cheating?  I couldn't even think bout what Liam would do if he found out.  He'd never speak to me again.

I felt hot tears streaming down my face.  I wish I could just go back in time.  I knew I did the wrong thing, but it felt right somewhere in my mind.  I had always loved him.  No Char, stop it.  You love Liam, not Niall, right?  I was beginning to question everything.  I had to pull myself together.  No one could ever speak of this again.  But what's it gonna be like between Niall and I?  "Char?  Can I talk to you, alone?" Niall asked from the doorway.  "Um, I guess." I wiped the tears from my face and followed him into the bathroom.  I didn't think I could trust myself being alone with him.

"This can't ever be mentioned again." I wanted to get out as soon as I could.  "I know that, but." he stopped.  "But what?  Spit it out!" I was growing impaitent.  He again leaned in to kiss me, this time I knew better and pushed him away.  "Are you stupid?" I asked as I walked back into the room with Harry and Louis.  I wasn'y upset anymore, I was pissed off.  I began pacing back and forth in the middle of the room.  Harry and Louis following me with their eyes.  "How can a person do that?" I started talking to myself.  "Char?" Harry called my name, stopping me dead in my tracks.

"What do you want Styles?" I looked at him.  "Sorry for speaking." he retreated from his planned response.  "No, I'm sorry." I plopped down on the couch next to him.  "Today's already been a mess and it's not even noon." I said looking at the clock.  Harry pulled me into his lap, spreading his arms out so I could fall into him.  "Thank you." I whispered into his ear.  "For what?" Harry was confused.  "For being a friend, not causing me drama." I referred to Niall.  "No problem." he responded as Niall walked back into the room.

"Char?" Niall stopped in front of us.  "What?" Harry answered for me.  "I'm sorry.  I was being a jerk.  I got caught up in the moment." I felt like he was singing a song.  "I"m sorry too." I got up from Harry's lap and hugged him.  "Oh yeah, Hazz and  Lou, what you saw never happened to Mads, Liam and Zayn okay?" I never wanted this to resurface.  "What did we see?" Louis caught on.  "Good." I smiled and sat down next to Harry again.  Niall sat down on the opposite side of the couch, distancing himself from us.

We watched t.v. for the next few hours, not really much conversation going on.  "So, Louis' what's up with your wrist?" I broke the silence.  "It's not broken, but it really hurts.  It's gonna be a nasty bruise." he informed me.  "That sounds horible.  See why we don't play games now?" I turned to Harry.  "Wasn't it Liam who said it would be a bad idea?" Harry remembered.  "Crap." he outsmarted me for once.  "When's everyone else getting up?" Louis asked, bored out of his mind, along with the rest of us.  "Hopefully soon, I'm so bored." I said as Liam walked into the living room.  

"Hey Babe!" I jumped up and kissed him.  Niall glared at me.  I swear I could hear him sing the last line of "I Wish".  "Maddy and Zayn still aren't awake?" Liam asked.  "Weren't you with them?" I wondered where he slept.  "No." he didn't care anymore and sat down next to Niall.  "Sup Nialler?" he nudged Niall.  "You have no idea." Niall muttered.  "I'll be right back." I wanted to know where Maddy and Zayn were.

I made my way upstairs, following the sound of Zayn's snore.  I ended up in Aria's room.  Maddy and Zayn were cuddled up on her queen sized bed.  Once again, how an eleven year old has queen sized bed, I don't know.  "Aw, such a cute couple." I giggled as I took a picture.  I then went into my room to see my bed made, Liam must've slept in here.  I finally changed out of m pj's and pulled on a pair of black skinny jeans and Liam/Louis' Superman shirt.  I ran a brush through my hair, pulling it up into a messy bun, my bangs falling around my face.