My Autobiography.. Sort of.

Abusive Friendship

When I was 11, I met Abby. Abby had a sister I hung out with once in a while too, let's call her Jade.

Abby and I met in primary, and at first I was wary around her because she seemed dark, but we became friends soon enough because I was attracted to how open and loud she was-it was what I wanted to be.

We became fast friends, and we did all sorts of things together. She was my first true bad influence, the one who actually made me change who I was and change my standards. I've lied for her, done bad things for her, and listened whole-heartedly to her lies and honey smooth comments on people I never knew.

She fancied herself incredibly important, and at one point in time believed she would be the mother of the Holy Ghost.

She moved away and went down the dark side, and she left my life for two to three years, with an encounter/phone call here and there. Then I moved up north, where she had moved.

One summer, the day after I lost my job, I was sensitive and easily-moldable. She called me and asked me for help, so I helped her. I'm a good person. I wasn't going to let her walk fifteen miles in the heat of summer.

Except fifteen miles turned into around 30 miles. She told me many things that sat very unwell with me, and I just sat there agreeing with everything she said because on one hand, I was scared of her, and on the other hand, it was like old times.

At the end of that long, ridiculous day, I finally decided to block her on everything an delete her number. I was done with her. I am still done with her. She went down a very dark path, and has made a few people afraid for their lives and their wellbeing. Now, she's a cult leader of what she says is love, but there is no love felt, just fear. And she thinks she's going to be a savior in Armageddon.

Overall, she was an emotionally abusive and very manipulative person, and I'm glad she's out of my life. I'm just worried about the other people she has in her trap. I've seen one of them, and there was just fear in his eyes.

Goodbye, Abby.