Best friends with benefits

Part 8

I was on the couch laying down in tears. Everythings is so crazy for me right now I feel so bad inside. Why do I still love that little hoe? I love him.

I heard a knock on my door. I sat up and moved the curtains so I can see. Its Eric. I closed the curtain and coverd my face as I started to cry harder. He opened the door with the key we hide underneath the mat. Eric sat in front of me on the couch. He grabed my hand away from my face.
"Hey, Im a jackass, im sorry I did this to you. You have great friends. Thanks for the uh- car." Eric told me.
He grabed my other hand and went to kiss my lips but I turned my head.
"Can you leave?" I asked.

"No, we need to talk. Like how we use to. Tell me everything. I want to be the friend you tell everything to not the one you hide everything from. What is the problem?"
"I love you. Thats the fucking problem. And all you care about is sex. I dont wanna be your best friend with benifits while you have sex with other girls. It hurts me so bad its like your stabbing my heart. You dont care about me.
"yes I do."
"yeah thats why you left me like im nothing and started to kiss other girls."
"baby, you never tell me how you feel or anything how am I suppose to know. Im so sorry you felt this way but you should of told me."
"I was scared to lose you. Why dont you wanna date me?"
"I dont wanna be an ex, I rather always be your bestfriend than an ex in the future."
"so you dont think we could make things work out?"
"Relationships never work."
"But we can!please?"
"give me time."
He wraps his arms around me and squezzes tight.
"I love you." I told him.
But he stayed silent. He started to touch me and kiss me and some other things and after he was done he left hickies on me in places on he can see.
"baby,dont ever feel like we are at war. We arent, if we wasnt we wouldnt be fucking lol im just saying. I always wanna be with you." He told me before he left.