Maybe I Was Wrong

I can't do this

Allies pov
I'm still in the dark. Why? Did I cut too deep? I only wanted a few simple cuts, I didn't mean to go farther.
What did Kyle mean to wait? Doesn't he know that I want him?
I'm able to gain control over my body again so I slowly opened my eyes,only to shut them closed from the bright lights. This earned a groan from some pain and being tired.
As soon as I was able to open my eyes I attempted to sit up and was successful.
I looked around to see that I was in the hospital again. I haven't been here in 3 years, usually the hospital would be home away from home but this time it feels different.
I looked to my right to see some chairs and a table with some food on it. I grabbed the food and started eating and then I realize there's a lump on one of the chairs.
I tried to get a closer look without getting up and I managed to see blonde hair.
"Robby?" The lump started moving then shot straight up.
"Allie?!? You're awake oh thank god." Then he ran to give me a hug then he pulled away to look at me. This caused me to look down because I know what he was gonna talk about.
"Why did you do this? I thought you defeated your depression?"
"I did I swear. I guess it was stress and I don't know." He slowly nodded knowing not to push it farther.
"Do you like kyle?" I looked up at him. I can't lie to Robby I never could. I slowly nodded knowing this would hurt him.
He sighed "well we'll talk about this later, the nurse said you can leave once you wake up." Robby is such a good guy it makes me get attracted to him more and more.
He waved his hand in front of my face as if trying to get my attention "Allie?"
"What oh, um yeah cool let's go." I got out of bed and grabbed my clothes to change in the bathroom.
I walked out the bathroom to see that the nurse was leaving the room and Robby turn to look at me. "What did the nurse say?" "I was telling her that you're ready to go and that we can check you out at the front."
I put on shoes and walked to robby "cool let's go" I started walking when Robby grabbed my arm and pulled me towards him.
"What?" I looked at him and he slowly started leaning in. I can't kiss him now, not after what happened. I pulled away to look at the time "c'mon it's getting a little late we need to go to Bryans apartment."
I slightly looked at Robby and hurt was written all over his face. I tried my best to hide the fact that I was miserable for all the pain I'm causing. "Yeah ok."
"Oh um we need to stop at your house first so I can get some clothes." He looked at me with the most saddest face ever. "Wha-why?" "I just figured that with everything that happened we both need some time to ourselves." He looked at the floor. Great I felt like a bitch now
"It will only be for a few days until I get my own thoughts straight and for you to do the same. I know I caused some stress on you lately."

*fast foward to apartment*

I looked out the window at the tree thats on the side of the parking lot. "Thanks for everything Robby". I felt him grab my chin to face him.
"Don't say it like that it sounds like I'm losing you forever." I looked down trying my hardest not to cry. "I'm sorry."
He hugged me with one of his most amazing hugs. I don't know if I want to stay here anymore but I know it's for the best.
"I have to go Robby everyone is expecting me." "I understand. Just text me when you want to come back or if you need anything."
I got out the car and stood by the window "I will. Thanks Robby I'll see you later." I started walking up the stairs while hearing Robby starting up the car and leaving. I stopped walking to hear him driving down the street. I took a few deep breaths and continued walking until I was outside the apartment door.
I knocked and Kyle opened the door. Great.
"Allie omg!!" Kyle gave me a tight hug.
I can't do this I need to let's some stuff go and this is one of them.

Hey guys sorry it's been awhile since I updated I've been busy band camp started for me and in less than a week school is gonna start but I promise I will update as much as I can.
Thanks for reading and as always stay awesome, stay alive we ya✌