The things that I said before, about being happy with the way my life was and that I wouldn't change a thing. That was all a lie. There are so many things in my life that break me. I keep giving pieces of myself away so that everyone else can be ok. How did I ever think that the best way to keep everyone together was by breaking myself. The worst part is that, the things I want to change can't be changed by me. I wish that I could see them. I wish that my best friend didn't feel the way that she does. I wish that they would have stayed together. I wish that I was good enough for him. I wish that I wasn't afraid to tell two of the most important people in my life, my sad and horrible truth. I wish that he was here to help me overcome the things that I don't want to go through alone. I wish, I wish, I wish. I wish that I didn't have to say "I wish" anymore.
