I opened my eyes, seeing the bright light that filled the room. Where was I? Oh yeah, at the hospital still. It's been 2 days and I was informed that I have to stay there for another week. Donghae kept his promise and visited me. Except it was awkward and quiet. He would come in, take a seat, then ask me how I am then leave. What's up with that?
"Hi sorry I'm late. I sit up and look at the person staring at me. Donghae is back.
"Oh it's fine I just woke up anyways." I responded.
"Okay I'm just going to get straight to it. I've been seeing someone! Her name is Jessica!" He started squealing in happiness.
My heart dropped. I hope he didn't hear my heart shatter.
"That's the reason why I haven't really been visiting. I've been busy dating. I'm sorry!"
"It's okay. You should go then! Go continue dating!"
"Yes yes hyung of course!" And just like that he left.
A girlfriend?! But how, why?! Hasn't he noticed some sort of my feelings? I laid back down on the bed. Back facing the window. I grabbed a pillow and squeezed it tightly. I wanted to tear up. My eyes started watering. I couldn't help but be upset. I started crying into the pillow. Next I started screaming in the pillow. I felt a little better.
"Yah! I got you ice cream!"
Ugh who is it now?
I sat up again to see Shin Dong and Nari with a bag of what I'm guessing is food.
"Hyung! How did you know I was here?"
"Well that kid Donghae or whatever, went around saying 'Hyukkie Hyung is in the hospital!'"
"Oh... Donghae... have you met his girlfriend?"
"What girlfriend? The girl who's always with him? Jessica?" Nari asked.
"Yeah how'd you know?"
"They're not dating, they're cousins." she responded.
What? Cousins? He lied? Why?
"Really?"
"Yeah. But something else is going on..."
"Is it good or bad?!" I was so nervous.
"Heechul and Donghae are like friends with benefits or something. I always see them making out and kissing. But they constantly say they aren't dating. Even though they make out during class."
My heart just reshattered. Is that even possible?
"Uhm can I, I mean and you guys leave? I need some time by myself."
"Yeah sure." Shin Dong went over to the table next to me and put a container of ice cream there. He then left the room. Nari went over to me and kissed my head
"You poor baby. You obviously are falling for him." She left the room and closed the door.
I grabbed the pillow again and cried in it again.
It was better if it was a girl but Heechul?! This made me cry more. But why did he lie to me?!
I closed my eyes and I drifted away into a deep sleep...
Donghae's POV
The guilt was killing me. I had feelings for Hyukkie and all but I don't know how it happened. One moment we were just talking and the next we were kissing. I felt so bad for doing that. I felt like I was cheating on Hyukkie. It was unfair. Why was Heechul an amazing kisser? Hs hypnotized me in a way. A way I didn't like.
After leaving the hospital, I felt even more guilty for lying to him by saying I was dating Jessica, but it was the only way. Jessica is probably the most annoying person ever.
I like Hyukkie and all, I probably have a lot of feelings for him. When I'm around him...its just the world stops. Why did you kiss me Kim Heechul?! UGH why?! Am I a cheater? Does Hyukkie know I like him? He did look really sad... I should go back to the hospital and tell him the truth! I was on a train about to go home, I decided I'll go back. The train stopped. I looked up and two people got on, they looked familiar. A fat man and a women who was probably his sister or something
"YAH DONGHAE!" The pudgy man said to me
I ignored him. The lady who came on with him walked towards me.
"What's wrong with you? You broke Hyukjae, you jerk." She whispered to me with a calming voice. She walked back to the chubby guy and went to the opposite side of the train from me.
Did Hyukkie know those people? Who does that man with so much insulation think he is? Screaming my name like that. Ha. And that skinny lady who looks like she's his daughter, what's her deal?
I wasn't ready to go home so I just sat on the train waiting for it to go to Hongdae. Train rides are so long, the whole time I was just looking at the distance while thinking of Hyukkie. I must've broken his heart. I should go tell Heechul to go away or something before I want to go home.
I picked up my phone and I went to Heechuls contact.
Donghae: I can't do this Heechul.
I waited for him to text back. While waiting I put my headphones in and pressed play.
Maroon 5 - Love Somebody
That's kinda odd. It's like my phone knows my feelings kinda. I'm really lost with my mind. I've only known Hyukkie for 5 days. Exactly 5 days, I've kept count. Maybe if I wait a bit my feelings might go away. This could just be a phase.
Heechul: Cant do what?
Donghae: I can't kiss you or touch you or even look at you. Just don't look at me. I don't like you.
It kinda sounded harsh but I don't care. That she-male can go screw with someone else. I know what I want and I want Hyukkie, not a transgender.
Would it be weird if I ran to him? Ran back to him actually. I should just get off the train and go to him.
