Thoughts

Nicotine

First puff.
I can taste the nicotine and feel the smoke fill my lungs. And then I think of the first time I saw you, and the way you took my breath away.

Pause. And I forget.

Second puff.
I take it longer to keep your memory in my mind. And as I exhale I remember the laughs we shared.

Pause. And I forget.

Third puff.
I keep the smoke in my lungs and remember when you told me to quit. And I said "When you leave, the only comfort I'll get is from this."

Pause. And I forget.

Fourth puff.
I can feel the light headedness kick in. And I remember how weak you made my knees the first time we kissed.

Pause. And I forget.

Fifth puff.
And as you left my lips I knew how you would leave and how my last thing my lips will touch is this cigarette. And how I desperately need your lips on mine to remember.

Pause. End. And I forget.