What Nerdy Love Leads To...

Suicidal attempt #3

I exited the last class of the day. Christopher had to stay a bit after to talk to the teacher about something.

I walked out, and was immediately grabbed. The person pulled my arm down to this giant crowd and I was thrown in the middle. The crowd was formed in a circle.

I kept glancing around, terrified, cause I had social anxiety, and I was freaking out.

"Oh my god, it's the Suicidal Bitch!"

"Why hasn't she died yet?"

"Yeah, she should really work on killing herself!"

"Wait, she hasn't yet!?"

"No!"

"Well well well." I heard a close voice from my side.

I turned around and saw a person, like, 4 inches taller than me towering over me.

"If it isn't the Suicidal Retard." Cheering came around. I felt tears in my eyes.

"Listen up you bitch. If you don't fucking stay away from everyone, there will be a punishment from every single person here. GOT THAT!?" He screamed in my face then slapped me hard.

I nodded fast.

"Everybody hear that!? Retard followed mt instructions!"

My heart beat in my ears, as I realized everything was blurry. I dashed through the crowd, and pushed everybody out of the way.

"Maliyah!"

I heard faintly over the heart beat in my ears. I didn't turn back. I dashed to where my favorite bench was. All I saw around me were:

Tree=Jump off and kill myself.

Bench=pick up and crush myself.

Grass=shove down my throat and suffocate.

I went to a wall and sat there, crying. Christopher took my knife, so I couldn't cut myself. Everything I looked at was a thought of a way to end me.

I looked up from my sleeves and at the wall.

Wall=Bang my head against it repeatedly till I die.

I did as my brain told me.

I started by bonking my head once very softly.

Then the next wasn't so soft.

Then the next was harder.

And harder.

And harder.

I felt blood dripped from my head. It wasn't enough.

I slammed my head against it. Twice more should do it.

"MALIYAH!!!" I heard from behind me. I bashed my head once more. Please... Just one more time...

My arm was pulled and I was pulled away from the peek of my death...

I looked somewhere, and saw Christopher. He picked me up bridle style and started running.

"Hang in there Maliyah... Hang in there..." Was the last thing I heard before I blacked out.

Time skips to ???

I opened my eyes.

Was I dead?

Has my wish finally come true!?

"Maliyah?"

Fuck...

I looked to my side and saw teary eyed Christopher, and Sabrina next to him.

"How long has it been?" I asked looking at the clock. It said 5:23. Only 1 hour...

"Maliyah, it's been 2 months. We've missed you... So much..." Sabrina said Wait...

2 MONTHS!?!?

"Wait, WHAT!?" I said freaking out. My head started throbbing.

"Calm down, Maliyah, it's Ok. It's December 2nd, 2020. Everything is all right now." Christopher said as he grabbed my hand. I wanted to scream.

I wanted to cry.

More specifically...

I wanted to die...

"It's only felt like it's been 2 minutes though..." I said, noticing my body was numb.

"For me, every second without you felt like a year. We all missed you Maliyah. I, missed you..." Christopher trailed off.

"I missed you so much Maliyah..." Sabrina trailed off.

"... I missed you guys too..."

And 20 minutes later, I'm with the next chapter...

Bye!😂