The Diary of A Mixed Girl

11.15.13

11.15.13

my life fucking sucks rite now....so there's these two guys who I have dated...ones name is Eli and ones name is Justyn....and I love them both dearly when Justyn broke up with me I started dating Eli again....then Justyn messages me on facebook like a week ago talking about he still loves me and stuff.....and I'm just sooooooo confused I love them both so fucking much and ive been through hell and back with both of them and they've both been there for me when I needed them most but now I have to choose who I really wanna be with and I feel like this could change my whole life cuz they are both already talking about our future and...idk I just don't know what to do I need help...I need....I need my big sister Ariel....I haven't really had a real conversation with her in a while and I miss and I really need some advice from someone who knows both of them...there is only 4 people I can talk to about shit like this......Shala, Ariel, Jess, and Bree I normally could talk to the guys if I had a problem but this concerns both of them so...idk ig I COULD go to my big bro...but idk cuz he don't really like either of em....ugggh!!!! :( my life fucking sux! !! I'm trying ti stay strong but its getting harder and harder as the days go on...plus I haven't eaten all week...and things are getting harder to hide...I hope nobody is catching on...God why does life have to be so hard :( </3