The Phantom's Admirer

Terror

(Alice’s POV)

I am starting to forget. I do not remember much from my old life back in the 2000s. It is as though I was born in this century. I can hardly remember my memories from my old life. This is my new life. I miss my best friend terribly. Julliard… or was it Jillian? Or was it Johannah? Nevermind that. I just wish she could be here so I could tell her about Erik. I’ve been terrified of him ever since that night.

I paused writing and flashed back to that terrible night…

(Flashback)

I watched in terror as the chandelier collided into the mass of innocent people swarming to get away. I could see people trapped under, their screams drowned out by the screams of people running away. There was nothing I could do to help. This had to happen. I couldn’t change anything from happening no matter what I did. I watched with tears running down my face to the people in agony.

Erik chuckled. “They all deserve this. They knew it was going to happen and they still decided to mock me.” He was more talking to himself than me. We haven’t said a word about what happened on the rooftop. I ignored him and continued to stare at the scene unraveling before my eyes. This is the monster the book told me about. This is the Erik everyone was scared of. Not the sentimental angel I have been seeing. Not the lie.

I rubbed at my shoulder that his hands had grabbed so forcefully just minutes ago. I flinched when I touched them so I let my hands fall lifelessly by my sides. I could see Erik stiffen in my peripheral vision but he didn’t say anything. He continued to watch the evil he let upon these innocent people with a victorious smile dancing across his face.

(End flashback)

I shivered as I recalled those events and closed my journal and stuffed it in the drawer. I walked over to the vanity and gently pulled down the sleeve covering my shoulders. A grimace covered my face as I saw the black bruises that covered my shoulders. I ever so slowly raised a shaky hand to touch the bruise but a voice stopped me.

“I would not do that if I were you.” My eyes shot up to the reflection of Erik in the mirror and fear immediately went through my veins. “I did not realize that I grabbed you that hard.”

I dropped my eyes from his gaze and looked back at the bruises, deciding not to answer him. I was scared my voice would crack showing him how scared I really was of him.

A cold hand gently traced my neck and stopped just near the bruise and I couldn’t help the feeling of heat and fear rush through me. I didn’t know whether to feel repulsed or intoxicated. “Please, speak to me.” I felt his hot breath on his neck.

I moved away from him, pulling my sleeves up. I walked to the fire pit set up to keep us warm and held my palms out to it. “Alice. You’re tearing me apart here.” He pleaded.

“And how do you think I feel?” I said in a voice laced with fear.

“What do you mean?”

I turned around quickly and looked at him through eyes filled to the brim with tears. “From the beginning you have been hurting me. You tried strangling me even. And that night… Not only did you hurt me physically and mentally you also hurt those innocent people. You are a monster!” I whisper yelled, my voice threatening to break at any moment. “You say you want to know who I am when I don’t even know who you are.”

His eyes filled with hurt and I could almost see his heart breaking before me. “Do not be scared of me, please. You are the only person I have.”

“Don’t be scared of you? How can you say that when you murder people without a bat of an eye? You kill not because you have to but because you want to. You reveal in it.” I knew we were entering dangerous territory. I knew just what he could do to me. But I didn’t care anymore. He needed to know. “I trusted you.”

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Short chappy I know but it’s the best I can do at 3 in the morning.

I AM SORRY! I have been super busy with my acting career and I promise to update tomorrow to make up for all my missed updates.

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