I Never Knew You Existed ( Exo Kai Fanfiction) COMPLETED

Leaving town..

Just like I promised to myself, I decided to leave town for a week. I packed my belongings and left the house cleaned. Just the way it always is. I took my key and took the extras in case.

As I was locking my front door ..

" You're leaving?"

I swore I could've shouted and die on the spot but I managed to stay calm and turn around to look who was it.

" Great! You want me dead now? You could've waited till I turn around and look at you!" I yelled at him.

" If I did that, you might just ignore me and not say a word."

He's right, I would do that.

"Get out of my way!"

" Are you leaving? "

"Isn't it obvious!?! Yes I'm leaving! "

"Do you want me to come with you?" He said and I can sense that if I said yes, he would rush to his house and pack his things to follow me.

"No! Don't follow me! I'm leaving because I need space, I need to go away from you! I'll come back in a week but don't even think of us being the way we were last time. "

"Why is it so wrong of me saying that I love you?" He said after a long pause.

I looked at him.. Straight into his eyes.

"Everything is wrong!!! Dont you see?! I can't give you the love that you need! I can't be who you want me to be! I can never be with you! I can never love you! Never! And I don't even have a thought of me loving you! So get a life! Just go!!" I screamed, hiding all the truth in me. Whatever I said disguised what I really wanted to say..

Truth is, I love him but  after what happened to my family... my mom.. Everything just wasn't perfect... till he showed up.

I could pour my heart to him but I could not stand losing him someday. I could not bare the pain.. I bared the pain of what happened to my mom and I'm not risking myself to be in that position again.

" If I love you , it doesn't mean you have to love me." tears are falling from his eyes and his voice changed.

He continued.. " Before you knew me.. I loved you.. " He paused and at that moment I started carrying my bag to walk away but he continued again.." The day when you spoke to me, the day when you called me annoying.. I was really happy. All I wanted is you to look at me and see me as someone. Not a wall. The other day when you scolded me in front of everyone.. I was even happier...Everyone witness you talking to me. Everyone knew I'm not a wall to you. It was the best birthday."

I was listening with my back infornt of him and slowly I turned around, seeing him smiling with tears while he speaks.

No.. please, don't talk.. It only makes me to stop and stay.. with you.

I thought to myself.

"But.. Just don't keep secrets from me. Tell me.. honestly..

You really don't love me?"

There.. He brought it up. I couldn't answer this. I just couldn't.

I just had to go away, this is all too much for me to handle.

In few minutes, he was out of my sight.

He didn't follow.

He didn't call.

He didn't do anything like how I am. Never did anything.