phan oneshots

not enough pt.1

Phil and I had been together for years now. I think it was almost 8 years? And we were both getting the mutual 'hey this has been going on too long I'm bored we should see other people' stage in our relationship, but I didn't want that to happen. I didn't want to let down fans, family, friends, myself. We just all knew that Phil and I were soul mates. This was the reason I hadn't brought it up with Phil yet. And he's tried to bring it up before with me, don't get me wrong. But I always change the subject quite quickly.

Sure, we could just take like 2 weeks off and then get right back together after we'd had some time off but what if Phil fell in love in that time. I mean it only took me 2 days to say 'hey Phil I'm in love with you' on Skype and he said it back so what if he finds someone and in 2 days says he loves them and just. No. Too risky. Can't lose Phil. Phil is my main priority in all of this.

Where was Phil right now? I think he said something about going out to get photos printed.

Oh yeah, our anniversary's coming up. As I mentioned earlier, almost 8 years. Quite exciting. Love him a lot. He's getting photos printed but we haven't been to anything too exciting recently so what else would they be for? What was he doing for me? Why was he such an amazing husband? So many questions span around in my head.

What was I doing for Phil? I already knew, don't worry.

Years ago for Valentine's Day, Phil accidentally released a video he had made for me. That's exactly what I was going to do. But I most likely wouldn't release it onto YouTube. I kind of wanted it to be our little thing this year.

I would just sit in front of the camera and talk. No editing. No background music. Nothing. I would sit and just vent about how much I loved him and how lucky I was to have him.

But what if he didn't feel the same anymore?

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